Penny is soon ready to go to heaven with my mom

[gyrochris]

Penny is my 14-year-old long-haired dachshund That I love more everyday , But this is where I must show her how much I truly do love her by letting her go . This evening Penny and I had to talk about When you take care of kids or dogs as long as I have No kids just dogs She is my last one And I wonder how I will deal with the emptiness in my life . ? It's really hard to imagine Not caring for my best friend anymore I'm actually putting myself first , It's unreal ! I could go on and on About all the loss I have suffered In the last so many years , But this is all about my dog And this horrible disease known as Cushings This is the first time I've had to deal with this.

Well I poured my whole heart out and I made a real long post and it got lost but luckily I came back and the auto save at least got my headline and it got the first paragraph but I lost everything else That really hinders my ability to wanted to this stuff..... I look at it as therapy I can talk to myself and my dog So when I put that much down on paper and it's just disappears and blink of an eye You just want to smash everything How long my lesson I'll copy and paste it from somewhere else See how terrible the spelling is on this thing How long my lesson I said I learned my lesson I'll copy and paste it from somewhere else This thing frustrates me too Like he can't understand what I'm saying and I speak perfectly clear