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I debated if I would leave, and everytime I come on here I start a blubbering fest, but I do want to know how others are doing. It keeps me too, although painful, somehow connected to my boy. I don't have much to offer others, but I'm still concerned for their pups. Hope you don't leave. Your thread was one of the first I read.
Thank you so much Juli.
Apollo for some reason you wanted me to go on the forum today. I had no intention of doing so. I just started crying for no reason. Saturday's were our whip cream mornings watching the humming bird nest in the patio. I say goodnight to you ever night. You were everything to me,my best friend,confidant ,my support through so many things in my life,my little boy, Mommy's little angel.
Love Angel
((((((((((hugs))))))))))
My little Angel
Today, I throw away, a wrap Mom made you to keep you cool in the summer. It never fit and was to heavy for you. Maybe I can think I am throwing away a part of Cushing. I still have all your clothes. Daddy said keep them for now. Over two and a half years and I am learning to live with your loss. But I miss you every day and still struggle with guilt. I need to focus on being blessed with sharing my lift with you for one month short of 14. Always in my heart and soul.
Sonja
I too have everything of Zoe's packed in a trunk. It will be many years before I empty anything from that trunk. baby steps are fine, sweet Sonja and if you wish to keep all of Apollo's things, you can.
I still have my dad's favorite shirt and license plates from his favorite car. Fifteen years later and I would not part with them. You don't have to part with anything if you would rather keep it.
Remembering your regal boy with you.
Dear Addy
Our lives are so alike. I still have my Dad's jacket he wore a lot,it was from Austria,our homeland. I would put it on sometimes to feel him. Thank you for your words. I talked to a neighbor yesterday who says she remembers the day Apollo died and knew when she saw me how heartbroken I was. She ached for me. Talked about her one and only cat that she had and still crys about her. She talked about the antics she would get into. She so loved Apollo and says he was sassy. It was nice to talk and remember. Reminds o me of Zoe's spunk. No wonder they are together in heaven. Like Zoe,Apollo will always be in my heart and soul till the day I die. These furballs leave such an enprint on us forever.
Sonja and Angel Apollo . Miss you ,mommy's little angel
My sweet baby boy,starting crying last night thinking about how much I miss you. 3 years in September. I talked about you at the park yesterday. You were such a regal little guy. Very,stubborn-would find some great hiding places in the house when it came to bath time. Very fuzzy where you would potty. I miss hearing the petter patter of your feet in the kitchen,the sound of your tags jiggling on your collar. If you hid from me all I had to say was treats and you'd come. And what endeared me so was you loved to listen to this one angel music box. So many memories. I made a video of your sister's Karma's up coming birthday,16. And you ,my little warrior,are in it. At the end is Ariel( the little worrier)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=irW1GMfXSis
Love you miss you every day, think often how much you endured. Always doubt myself,what I did wrong,how I could have helped you more,feeling so helpless during all of it.
Love you forever,always in my heart,always in my mind.
Sweet Sonja, I watched Karma's video the day you posted it and thought how beautiful it was.
I have just been so sick and coughing so hard, I did not tell how much I loved the video, I'm sorry.
you have nothing to be sorry about. It is Zoe's time, I have no right to take up time with my stuff.
Sonja and Angel Apollo
I hope you start feeling better.
My little warrior,my little angel. Life is harder since you left. I have never been the same since you passed. I will always miss you. I don't think I will ever over come the guilt I feel about what you went through or how I feel I could have done more for you or that I should not have made you go through so much. Ariel helps me a lot. You are always in my heart. I always cry when I view your video. I am struggling with when to leave the forum. It has been almost 3 years since your passing. There I go again with crying. My little angel, I miss you every day,especially at night when it is quiet. We plan on moving in a year. It will be hard since you grow up in this home,but I will take you with me,in my heart.
Love always ,my little boy.