Molly, 13 yr, shih tzu - lhasa aspo - Molly has passed

[Harley PoMMom]

Sending healing white light and positive energy, hoping tomorrow Molly will be feeling much better.

Love and huge hugs, Lori

[Bailey's Mom]

Hi Sharlene-
Love and hugs. Molly is where she should be for right now. Rest well.

Love,
Sus

[Joan2517]

Oh, Sharlene...

I hope Molly is okay...I am praying for you both...I know where you are and how scared you are...

Love,
Joan

[spdd]

I'm here with you in mind, spirit, thoughts and prayers. Huge hugs going out to you.

[Tina]

Oh Sharlene, I finally got back here to try and do a little catch up and just finished reading about Molly. I am so sorry all of this is happening and I'm praying so hard that the fluids and treatment she is receiving in the hospital will turn things around for the little darling. I know how scary all of this is.

And in the midst of it all, I see that you took the time to post on our thread. Thinking about others as always, you are a doll. I am here with you too, and sending love and huge hugs. Praying that our little Diva will be feeling much better. (((hugs))) xo

[Squirt's Mom]

Holding space for all of you and praying today brings good news!
((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))) ))))))))))))))

[molly muffin]

So, this morning she is still refusing all food and treats. Kidney values still high last night. Electrolytes okay. BP is still in 200's she isn't really interactive with her surroundings. Just lethargic and uninterested

We are going to give fluids this morning and then retest bloods this afternoon. If there is any progress in kidney values and IMS thinks there is hope, then we'll go for another day. I'll be taking her chicken/rice home cooked to see if she will eat that.
If there isn't any progress, and kidneys might take 48 hours, but we should see something positive, if there isn't then we'll make the decision at that time on what to do.
My hubby will go with me to the ER this evening, as he doesn't want me to drive over on my own just in case.

I'm at work now, focusing on work keeps me from being a basket case as soon as I think of molly I have to step away from my desk and walk outside or just lose it and in an office full of people that is probably not a good idea. Seems I can't just quietly cry over her, but instead do this really loud bawling sobbing sound.
Luckily I am caught up on work for the day and if I have to leave at a moments notice I can and can grab hubs too. I'd just rather be here trying not to think than home thinking too much

[Joan2517]

Oh, Sharlene...I will cry quietly for you here at work, I do it all the time anyway. I'm so sorry you are going through this.

[Squirt's Mom]

It is seldom even now more than 2 years after Squirt had to leave that I cry quietly for her. All too often when it hits me all over again that it is real those same screams that poured out of me in the beginning still issue forth. I'm not sure it is possible to grieve quietly for a love like we know. So step aside, take a walk, do whatever you need to do. And know that all around the world there are others doing the same with you, loving Molly in our own ways.

((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))

[labblab]

I am here, too, with tears in my eyes and an enormous lump in my throat. But if the IMS who knows Molly so well thinks there's hope, then hoping with all my might is exactly what I shall be doing! Paws up, Miss Molly!

Sending huge hugs to you and hubby, Sharlene. I know how hard this has to be for you both. I will keep checking in all day.

[mcdavis]

Me too, with tears in my eyes but masses of hopes and prayers for Molly and hugs and thoughts for you and your family. You are doing, and have always done, every possible thing you could for Molly.

[spdd]

Nothing I can say will make you feel better, however please know that we love you and Molly and all of us our wishing nothing but the best outcome possible. She's a fighter along with her Mom.

[addy]

I am really hoping Molly perks up when she sees you, Sharlene. We will just wait for the next report and send positive thoughts to you both while we wait.

You have always done right by Molly, fought so hard for her. You will know when the battle needs to end.

We are all right by your side.

Big hugs and much love. Hoping for our Diva to pull through this somehow.

[Budsters Mom]

Quick break at work... Sorry I don't have time for more right now, but I want you to know that I'm here too. We love you Sharlene and will remain by your side.

((((((((((((Hugs)))))))))

[judymaggie]

Sharlene -- joining everyone else with prayers and healing thoughts for Miss Molly! We all love you and your baby so much and are so praying for positive progress.

[Harley PoMMom]

I am here too, Sharlene. Hoping and praying that Molly starts improving...Love and hugs, Lori

[Tina]

Me too Sharlene, I'm here too. Lump in my throat, tears in my eyes, but hoping and praying with all my might that she rallies and shows some improvement. As always, you are doing everything possible for her. I am not able to cry quietly either. Love and big hugs. xoxo

[Squirt's Mom]

Sharlene is just swamped today and then wants to be able to see Molly this evening so she hasn't had a chance to update here and asked that her update on Facebook be shared with her family here. So here is what Sharlene had to say about our sweet girl in the last hour -

"Creatinine went up to 600 but now down to 500.

Bun down a bit too

We going to,give her another day of antibiotics. See if we can get her back where she was

Going over soon and taking home cook chicken and rice. She still refusing food. Want to see if she will eat for me.

Not sure she will but I will leave with them.

Recheck bloods tomorrow

Tomorrow will be another long day

I get hopeful then don't hear great news. Get depressed. Emotional wreck

Staying focused helps on work. As less time to over think things

I told IMS if there is a chance she pull out of this. I want her to have it.

She said lets see how she does There is still a chance I think. Depends in kidneys

She peeing ok

So they are working. And she tolerating fluids well Lol

Yes they are working. But she Has to eat

Daniel be home soon and we leave them for vets

Want to see IMS if possible

If not she will call me tomorrow

I will update again after I see her. Know more I think.

How she responds to me

Normally she would go nuts seeing me thinking its a jail break and she going home

So even perking up would be good. Mi don't expect tons with the pain meds and antibiotics.

But something. A shine to her eyes

Okay. Have to get ready to leave. Will check I tonight. I haven't updated Mollys three on forum if someone wants to let them know it will be another day. I will pop in there when I get back. Lots keeping up with her on forum too.

But out of time"

[judymaggie]

Leslie -- thanks for posting Sharlene's update. I have been so worried about her and Molly. There are some glimmers of hope in the details, especially in news that her kidneys are working, and am praying that she will eat a bit of food tonight.

[labblab]

Yes, thanks so much for the update, Les. Fingers still crossed and hopeful thoughts flying northward.

[Budsters Mom]

Okay, so we wait together. I am not a good waiter! :o

[Whiskey's Mom]

We're here too! Worrying. Praying. Hoping.

[mcdavis]

Thanks for the update Leslie. I'm focusing on the positives, and hoping that Molly eats something when she sees Sharlene.

[spdd]

C'mon our sweet Diva... have a healthy supper baby!!

[Squirt's Mom]

We heard from Sharlene just a bit ago and here is what she had to say -

"She ate a little. Very
Little bit
Better than nothing.

Just have to see how she does.

We gave her sponge bath. Cleaned ears and eyes. Hope tomorrow is better

She is quite adorable.

Everyone there loves her too. So that is good. She mad at me though. Kept turning head away from me and would take food only from my hubs for awhile. Then she came around.

Didn't like that I left her though. So I in dog house now"

[molly muffin]

Okay I'm home now

Thank you Leslie for doing our updates.

So, not exactly the molly we usually see. Not perky, but she did eat a few bites from hubby and her bowl, and finally let me give her a few bites too. We took her for a walk so she could have a potty break, which she did. Yay. She can't really walk with the IV pics in her so it wasn't a big walk.

But her eating a few bites was progress.

The gist is whether this is an acute episode that she can recover from or is it part of the chronic problem that just went out of control quickly.

If it is acute and we see progress each day downwards in her kidney values, then we keep going.
If she doesn't make progress then we can assume this is chronic and she won't recover.

Some dogs do well on fluids and then when you take them off the kidney values come right back up, this is chronic.

Acute would mean that they come down and stay down, reacting to the antibiotics and fluids.

So each day we have to decide, did she make progress is she showing signs of recovery from acute episode or is she not responding and it is chronic.

This is going to be nerve wrecking every single day.

It is very sad to see her this way but I can say she is better today than yesterday in her responses, but no where near normal. Yesterday I could shake her and she wouldn't wake up, today she is at least paying attention to her surroundings and the people around her.

That is about where we are right now. Tomorrow we will know if she responded more or not.

Her creatinine at one point went up to 600 yesterday (up from the earlier bloods) and today came down to 500. Tomorrow we want see her in at least 400's. The goal is to get her back to where she was and have her stay there. That would be in the 200's. Still high, but there is no getting away from the kidney disease itself. But she did okay at 183 for a really long time. So we shall see.

Thanks for hanging with me and molly through this. Somehow I never saw this being where we would be at but then no one does. I don't know how I thought her life would progress, and maybe I just stayed in denial. I don't know if I am in denial now or not. Hubby says that we just take each day at a time and see how she does, so that is the plan.

[labblab]

Thanks so much for taking the time to let us know, Sharlene. Yep, one day at a time with many healing wishes being sent to our girl.

Lots of love coming your way, too!

[Budsters Mom]

Thanks so much for updating us. Not of all of us follow Facebook.

I'm sure you and hubby are exhausted. We'll keep everything crossed, that our little diva pulls through.

PAWS UP MOLLY GIRL!!!

(((((((Hugs))))))

,

[mcdavis]

Thanks for the update Sharlene. It's good to hear that she ate something, however small the amount. And its also good that she had a little sulk about staying at the vets.

[Tina]

Somehow I never saw this being where we would be at but then no one does. I don't know how I thought her life would progress, and maybe I just stayed in denial. I don't know if I am in denial now or not. Hubby says that we just take each day at a time and see how she does, so that is the plan.

(((Hugs))) This is exactly where I am at right now also, it is so so hard. One day at a time is tough but it is what we have. So relieved to read that Miss Molly ate something, even a little bit. If she is not too keen on the rice you could try cooked pasta and chicken, I have better luck with that a lot of the time. Continuing to send healing thoughts and prayers that she responds further to the treatment, and lots of love and hugs. xoxo

[labblab]

"Day Shift" signing in once again, Shar. Already sending you guys healing wishes to begin what will hopefully be a much better day for our little girl!

[spdd]

Right there with you on the "day shift." - so glad to come on this morning and read the update. Some progress is better then none at all, so here's really hoping today is even better. Will be thinking of you both all day... keep up the good work Molly - we are all rooting for you.

[Joan2517]

From all of us here, too Sharlene. Praying for you and Molly.

[Squirt's Mom]

First place I came this morning after getting online and I will be here waiting, praying the news this morning is even better. I hope you were able to get at least a little sleep last nite.

Hugs,
Leslie and the gang

[addy]

Hanging out in every social media place I can.

We will wait for news, hope you got some sleep, eat if you can.

Love ya

[judymaggie]

I' m heading out but will be sending healing vibes up north. Please eat some more, Miss Molly!

[Tina]

Checking in here too Sharlene and praying for more good news this morning and that our little girl had a good night, and that she eats today. Sending positive healing thoughts, lots of love and hugs. I will be checking in throughout the day also. We are all still here right by your side. xo

[Harley PoMMom]

Joining the others in hoping and praying that Molly is doing better today. Sending huge and loving hugs, Lori

[molly muffin]

Morning report is that she had a quiet night, resting comfortably and she took her amoldipine in a pill pocket (that is excellent news that she took a pill pocket, means she is hungry, means her kidney values are hopefully improving)

We won't know more till later this afternoon, when new blood work is done for kidneys.

Daniel and I will be going to visit her no matter what this evening and taking more chicken and her grooming tools, so I can brush her and get rid of any matted areas on her. I also bought some wet dog clothes for cleaning and will try to use those as being in hospital she doesn't get baths while on IV, etc. So, she'll feel better and so will I if she is cleaned up. we did bum and privates washes, cleaned eyes etc yesterday and will do that again today.

I really want her HOME and feeling better. Trying to rack my brain as to what could have caused an acute episode. Really hoping it isn't chronic of course.

I'm just going to act like she will get better. :)

[labblab]

I'm just going to act like she will get better.

Me too, me too, me too!!!! Hooray for the pill pocket :) and we will anxiously await further news.

You go, Molly Girl!

[Squirt's Mom]

Yes! I am so glad to hear this! And acting "as if" is a great plan!

[mcdavis]

Really pleased to hear she's had a quiet night and that she took the pill pocket. Loads of "low numbers and feeling hungry" thoughts are being sent West.

[Budsters Mom]

I'm here too, on break. More later. (((((Hugs)))))

[Bailey's Mom]

Can we pull in some more chairs? We are running out of places to sit. :D What a crowd of well wishers and supportive wait-ers. ;)
What is, is. Don't waste any energy on wondering what caused all this. She is getting all the help she can get and is surrounded by love and support-as are you and hubby.
I look forward to the next update. Thanks for keeping us posted.
Hugs,
Sus

[Budsters Mom]

Well Marianne and Addy are busy mixing girly drinks and providing snacks, so we can always rotate chairs if need be. ;)


I'm exhausted from work, so naturally I will need to be caterered to!

[molly muffin]

The numbers haven't come down significantly, just a tiny bit. It's not enough

We are going to pick molly up. I'll give her liquid anitibiotic and pain med here and see if she will eat for us. Also give sub q fluids. She'll go back for test tomorrow but I want her to be where she is most comfortable right now and while it doesn't look like she is going to recover, she needs to be with me.

The IMS wanted to see some sort of progress after 48 hours of the IV and it just isn't there, no matter how much we want it to be.

I'll update later. Daniel picking me up to go bring her home.

[labblab]

I understand, Sharlene. Home is where Molly needs to be now, cradled in love. And while you're holding her, we'll be wrapping our arms around you and Daniel. I am so sorry about the numbers. I cannot tell you how sorry I am. We are here for you always.

[Joan2517]

Yes, she needs to be home with you, Sharlene, she'll feel much better with you close and in her own environment.

[Harley PoMMom]

Sending love, Sharlene, with hugs.

[Squirt's Mom]

Just hugs and belly scritches.... and love and hope and prayers.

[mcdavis]

Keeping Molly, you and Daniel in our thoughts and prayers.

[Budsters Mom]

I am so very sorry. :) Molly has exactly what she needs. You and her daddy. It is what is is. We remain with you all. xxxxooooo

[judymaggie]

I think that Molly will feel so much more comfortable at home with both you and Daniel. Sending comforting hugs and prayers to you all!

[Tina]

Sharlene, I am so sorry to read this. I have been thinking about you both all day and praying that those numbers would come down. I agree, home with you and Daniel is where she needs to be. Sending continued love and hugs. And of course ongoing hope and prayers. xoxo

[flynnandian]

at least miss molly is home now where she belongs. less stress will help het settle down i hope. get well soon molly.

[molly muffin]

She is home with is now. We are both very emotional but walk out of the room when it is too ugh as do not want her to read us as upset. She is resting now in her window seat.
She isn't doing very good. She can barely walk is so weak from not eating. We will try that later as she pretty drugged up right now. Also no real control over kidneys at the moment. Maybe due to fluids and pain meds in her.

We will see how she is in the morning and try tempting food later.

[rolfecms]

I feel like I'm intruding as I'm relatively new to this forum.

I've been reading your posts about Molly and wanted to tell you that I'm hoping and praying for the best.

It's a blessing to have the support from all the concerned members here, especially in times like these when you need it the most.

[Joan2517]

Sharlene,

i don't know what else to say except that my heart is breaking for you right now. You were there when I needed you and I hope you know that I am here for you now...Molly being home with you is such a blessing and she knows how much you and Daniel love her, and she loves you, too.

Love,
Joan

[Budsters Mom]

Home, in her window seat. Molly's World. (((((Hugs)))))

[labblab]

Oh Sharlene, I know how rough this has to be for you and Daniel. It feels so important to get her to eat in order to regain some strength. But with creatinine and BUN values that are so high, she probably just does not have any appetite for anything. I remember with Barkis how helpless I felt when he stopped eating. The one thing I thought he needed most was the one thing I couldn't give him and it made me feel so desperate and so crazy.

For Molly herself, though, probably what is a far greater comfort to her than food is just being home, resting quietly in her own window seat, with you and Daniel nearby. I know what it means if you cannot get her to eat and my heart goes out to you. But that just may not be within your power to do. If not, you won't have failed her even though it may feel that way to you. Just keeping her quiet and calm and loved may be the greatest gifts you can give her right now, even though you want to do so much more. This is such a hard time and we will stay right here by your side.

[Harley PoMMom]

I'm right here too, Sharlene.

[Budsters Mom]

Me too my dear. So wish I could do more.

[Tina]

Marianne, thank you for saying so eloquently exactly what I have just been struggling to write myself, only much more well expressed. Sharlene, my heart is with you, and I wish there was something I could do or say to help. I am by your side also. xo



Oh Sharlene, I know how rough this has to be for you and Daniel. It feels so important to get her to eat in order to regain some strength. But with creatinine and BUN values that are so high, she probably just does not have any appetite for anything. I remember with Barkis how helpless I felt when he stopped eating. The one thing I thought he needed most was the one thing I couldn't give him and it made me feel so desperate and so crazy.

For Molly herself, though, probably what is a far greater comfort to her than food is just being home, resting quietly in her own window seat, with you and Daniel nearby. I know what it means if you cannot get her to eat and my heart goes out to you. But that just may not be within your power to do. If not, you won't have failed her even though it may feel that way to you. Just keeping her quiet and calm and loved may be the greatest gifts you can give her right now, even though you want to do so much more. This is such a hard time and we will stay right here by your side.

[Budsters Mom]

Still here. Checking in again. Never too far away. ((((Hugs))))

[Bailey's Mom]

I am so pleased that you decided to take Molly home. I know how rough this is. This sounds exactly what we went through with Palmer. My one "regret" is that I agreed to have him stay at the specialist's hospital for a few days, while they administered fluids. It did not change anything-but the doctor tried to assure us that we had done absolutely everything we could have for him. Keep Molly with you and let her know how very much she is loved. Talk to her. She needs you now. You need to enjoy her company. I am so sorry the picture is not better.
Hugs,
Sus

[Squirt's Mom]

Surrounding you, Molly, and Daniel with all the love and energies I can provide. There is no doubt your precious girl is where she wants to be - home with her mom and dad. She knows above all that you hold her best interest foremost, no matter the cost to you. My prayers for you all continue to rise, candles burn carrying Molly's name to the Heavens.

Hugs,
Leslie and the gang

[judymaggie]

I so wish we were all physically close to you , Molly and Daniel. Since that is not possible, our cyber hugs will have to do along with prayers for all of you. I am giving Abbie extra cuddles in honor of Molly.

[Tina]

Thinking of you all and sending positive thoughts, prayers and love. xoxo

[molly muffin]

Morning update. She had a good night. When I said Molly time for bed she was ready and I carried her up like normal and she wagged her tail. She went to the door when I asked her if she needed to go outside. So that is good. Still won't eat but is drinking on her own when she is thirsty.

This morning when she woke up she had an accident and then took off pretty darn fast for a sick girl. I told her it was okay as she is sick. So she can move and walk on her own. She took off pretty quick after morning meds too.

She won't eat so I used syringe with baby food as Wendy did for her Katie. Ended up grounding up meds and putting in the baby food and that worked. Then gave her pain meds. Later she will get sub q fluids. I plan to use baby food in a strings as easier to digest than solid right now. Eventually the hope is she will start to eat as she feels better and we keep on antibiotic for a week.

I am not going to get blood tests today. I don't think there will be a change yet. Either she will respond or she won't. I am guarded in whether I think this will work or not but I think is worth a shot.

She is happy to be home. She makes that known to us just in her reactions. That she has any reaction is a positive right now. I was so scared for her yesterday.

I might be being foolish but it's worth a shot. She either will get better or not. We just don't know. Not even docs know for sure

I want to thank all of you for being here for us during this truly terrible time. I don't know if I'd got to this point without you. You Help me to be stronger for her.

What we are doing isn't a long term solution. It is to give her a chance. I am hoping the baby food given every couple hours will help her to get stronger enough to go it on her own once again. We shall see. Hour by hour. Day by day.

[labblab]

Oh Sharlene, I think you are doing all the right things right now. I would not take her in for bloodwork at this point, either. Just as you say, you will be able to see by her behavior if she is doing better. The time you and Daniel are spending with her is precious, no matter for how long. And also just as you've said, the bottom line right now is that nobody can say what is yet to happen. Thank you so much for taking the time to update us. It means the world to us to know how you three are doing. Keep up the good work, girl!

[DoxieMama]

Way to go, Molly! Wag your tail, eat up and show everyone just what a diva can do.

I'm home and just caught up on the thread, been reading the week's updates with tears running down my face, a lump in my throat... so anxious to see how she is doing today. The time it took was just enough for you to post this morning's updates.

I'll be keeping you in my thoughts today. Lots of hugs your way!

Shana

[Squirt's Mom]

To me that sounds positive! Getting nutrients in and keeping them in is GREAT! If that means syringing baby food, so be it....that will help her regain her strength and hopefully kick start her appetite. Her behavior is also a good sign to me - reacting to bed time, feeling shame at the accident, moving on her own now - all good things to me. ;) You are giving her every chance, just as she deserves...and if she can pull thru this, she most certainly will with her loving mom at her side like this.

We will always be with you, Sharlene, always.
Hugs,
Leslie and the gang

[Joan2517]

Happier news! I used to feed my cat baby food when he wouldn't eat and it usually worked to kick-start his appetite. She must feel much better just being home with her family. I will be thinking of you all day and watching for more news......

[Harley PoMMom]

Oh Sharlene, I am so glad to hear that she is showing signs of feeling better!!

Getting them to eat when they don't want to just breaks your heart, Harley did that too.

I wonder if Nutri-cal would be something Molly would eat.

Sending loads of positive and healing energy along with huge loving hugs.

[Budsters Mom]

Awwww, she's happy to be home. Exactly where she wants to be. Surrounded by those she loves so very much.

[Budsters Mom]

Mid day checkin. So many chores to get done. :o

Hope she's able to eat a little more. Yes, I have had to use a syringe many times. It did help.

Molly is truly blessed to have such loving and devoted parents. I'll be back!!!

[addy]

Hugs being sent your way, Sharlene.

Wish I could make it all better.

[mcdavis]

Certainly sounds like things have taken a positive turn, and so happy to hear. Wishing you all a good night and hoping that tomorrow will see improvements.
Hugs xx

[Bailey's Mom]

Sounds better....yes! I hope you had a good day. It is what it is.....and it IS better!!! :D

Hugs,
Sus

[Tina]

So happy to read your update and that she is showing some positive signs! I hope she has continued to feel better throughout the day, has a quiet night tonight and is feeling even better tomorrow. Thinking of you all. xo

[DoxieMama]

Thinking of you this morning, and sending more hugs and positive thoughts!

[addy]

So here we all are Sharlene, climbing on that roller coaster with you!
We have no intention of letting you ride without all of us.

So everyone on board, it will be a long line, but I think we all fit!

[Squirt's Mom]

Nope, you are never alone....lots of us crowded around you, Molly and Daniel. Hope today brings even more improvements.

[Harley PoMMom]

Checking in too. ((((Hugs))))

[Tina]

Me too Sharlene, checking in here. Thinking of you guys and sending love and hugs. xo

[judymaggie]

Abbie and I are here, too! Lots of hugs sent your way!

[Budsters Mom]

I don't ride roller coasters, but I will be there to make sure everyone is securely fastened it and in an upright position. ;)

I'm here to Sharlene. Xxxooo

[molly muffin]

It isn't looking good. She still refuses to eat. Her poor little body While her spirit is strong it is the body that fails them it seems.

We have decided that unless there is a very big turn around which is doubtful that we will have the vet come to the house tomorrow night.

I didn't know the body could have this many teas in it. Even writing this is heart breaking.

I went to the pet store, the pharmacy, the grocery and bight very thing I could think of to try to notice her to eat even one bite on her own. No luck. I haven't been abl to find nitro-cal here. Just Ensure.

I even syringe some nasty tripe into her mouth to see if it would stimulate her but no luck there either.

I can't type any more right now. My iPad screen is getting soaked with my tears.

[labblab]

Mine too, Sharlene. I'm so very sorry, there just are no words.

But I am here and I will stay here, as will all your's and Molly's family. We love you both so much.

[judymaggie]

Aw, Sharlene -- I so wish that Molly would take a few bites. Having gone this route with Maggie, I know how heart-breaking it is. Please feel our hugs and love!

[Squirt's Mom]

:(:(:(:( My heart is shattering, Sharlene. Like so many, yourself included, I have held tight to the belief this would turn around and our little diva would rally once again. I am not ready to let that hope go just yet so if it's ok, I am going to hold onto it a while longer.

Hugs and belly scritches,
Leslie and the gang

[Harley PoMMom]

Oh Sharlene,

I am so sorry...

[Tina]

Oh Sharlene, I am so sorry. I am heartbroken to read this, and know how much it hurts. I'm here too along with the others. Sending ongoing love and prayers. xo

[spdd]

I'm completely lost for words... my heart just breaks for you.

[Budsters Mom]

I will remain here also. So many tears. :o I am so very sorry. We love you both so much. Our precious little diva muffin.

((((((((((((((((Hugs)))))))))))))))

[Budsters Mom]

I see that you are here right now Sharlene. Beaming tons of strength and love directly to you. You can do this. We are with you and understand. You and Daniel are not alone. There is a village.

[flynnandian]

my ian didn't want to eat anything the last 3 days of his life too.
my last resort were those recovery pouches from the vet. it is powder and you have to mix it with water and feed it with a syringe. i also bought instant puppy milk. both high in calories.
but it didn't work.
we are thinking of you and your husband and hope molly will enjoy your last day[s] together.
letting them go is the most unselfish gift we can give them.
lots of hugs from us!

[mcdavis]

Oh Sharlene, I'm just so sorry that you are faced with this but I know that you will make the right decision for Molly. As Iris says it's the most unselfish gift we can make because it breaks our hearts.
Hugs from us too

[Renee]

I'm not super active around here, but I wanted you to know I am here too. You are not alone in this Sharlene. We are all here.

[Budsters Mom]

Checking in again... It's an honor to share my birthday with all of you, but so wish the situation was different.

[molly muffin]

Happy birthday Kathy from Molly, me and Daniel. We appreciate you checking in even on your special day

[Bailey's Mom]

My thoughts are with you, Molly and Daniel. I am so very sorry for how things are. I am here for you all.

[Budsters Mom]

Oh Sharlene, thank you. I am exactly where I need to be. I have not forgotten that you were and are there for me, no matter what has gone on elsewhere.

Hugs,

[Joan2517]

I'm so sorry, Sharlene...this is so heartbreaking.

[labblab]

Sending love and comfort to you all this night.

[Budsters Mom]

Yes, from me too!!

[labblab]

Awake now this morning and suspecting you three are, too. :o :o :o

I wish there was some way I could make this day easier for you, but I know it is not within my power to do. Regardless, as Kathy has said, please know you are surrounded by a village of caring family members. And dearest Molly is in the center of our circle of love.

I wish you strength and comfort if this is indeed the day that you send Molly off on her newest journey. And please tell her, for us, what a good girl she is. Please tell her how much we love her -- how much we love you all.

Sending so many hugs flying to you across the miles, Sharlene. We are all there with you in spirit and will remain by your side throughout this day and night.

[Whiskey's Mom]

My thoughts are with you all and I wish you comfort, love and peace.

[DoxieMama]

Sharlene, I am so so sorry... (((hugs)))

[Squirt's Mom]

Cherish each moment, know she loves you as much as you love her and trusts you explicitly. I continue to send prayers and hold onto hope.

Hugs,
Leslie and the gang

[Tina]

Sharlene, thinking of you and holding you all in my heart. Continuing to send love, hugs and prayers. I wish I could do more. xo

[Harley PoMMom]

My thoughts and prayers are with you all, we are here for you, Sharlene, and always will be.

Love and hugs, Lori

[Budsters Mom]

I am at work, but I'll be checking in as often as I can. Dayshift, carry-on. You are doing an awesome job!;)

[molly muffin]

4:30 this afternoon we are taking her into the clinic for her final sleep

She had a good night, restful, cuddles with me on the bed this morning, met her friend on her morning walk and had tail wags and sniffing.

She has dry heaves now though so it's getting worse. She hasn't had that before. It's time and I have to remember I'm doing this for her. She doesn't feel good now and there is nothing left that I can do to save her. Her little body just is giving out. So this is my last gift to my molly muffin.

Gawd I love her so much , this just makes my heart hurt so much. :(

[labblab]

Just as you are doing this for Molly, we are right by your side and trying our best to help you and Daniel. We love you all three, Sharlene. Send our precious girl off with kisses and hugs from her family here. I know our furangels are already assembling to greet her on the other side at the very moment you release her. She will never be alone, and neither will you.

[rolfecms]

No words can express the pain you're going thru right now Sharlene. Please know we're here for you and Molly and that you're making the right decision for her, as difficult as it truly is to say goodbye.

[mcdavis]

Oh Sharlene. I'm sitting here with tears streaming down my cheeks, knowing there's nothing I can say or do to help.
Molly's body may be giving up but her soul will live on through the many happy memories.

[DoxieMama]

Just checking in from work, as the 3 of you remain in my thoughts throughout the day today. We shall continue to surround you all with love and prayers.

[spdd]

I don't know if this will help... but because you were so kind to me, please feel free to call me tonight if you feel like it. No one knows better then I do how you are feeling and what you are going through that lives close by. I will leave my phone number on your facebook page. My heart is breaking for you, it really is. Feel free to phone me whenever, I'm here for you if you need me.

[Budsters Mom]

The ultimate act of love is one of the hardest things you'll ever have to do. I have to get back because we are short staffed today. I will return soon. We love you all.

[Tina]

My heart is breaking for you. We know how much this hurts and love you all. Sending prayers of comfort and all my love and support. xo

[Spiceysmum]

Dear Sharlene,
I am so sorry to hear about Molly. It is the hardest decision to make but always made out of love for our fur babies. I feel for you as you are going through this. We are all thinking of you.
Linda x

[Trish]

Whenever a sad day such as this comes around I always try and focus on the happy memories and there are an absolute ton of them with our Molly, she is a beauty just like her Mama

You know you have our constant love and hugs Sharlene and we will be with you all the way just like you have been for us though all the ups and downs of this journey, which is. It over and never will be as far as we are concerned. We have big shoulders to lean on and wail and snot and get angry at, you have lived it with us and we will do the same for you because that's what friends do. Xxxxx

[judymaggie]

My heart is with you and Daniel and Miss Molly on this hardest of days. Setting Molly free from her pain is the kindest gift you can give her in return for all the selfless love she has given you. My Maggie and so many others will be awaiting your arrival!

[Harley PoMMom]

Oh dearest Sharlene, I am so very sorry. The decision to let them go is made out of love, out of a desire to spare them more pain and suffering, even tho it tears our heart out to do so. I remember a member saying that the the greatest act of love is to take their pain and make it yours, and that is so true.

Many, many consoling hugs being sent for you and Daniel.

Love you, Lori

[flynnandian]

this sounds so much the same as my last day[s] with my ian. he had dry heaves too on his last day. hard to read, but i wish you and your family lots of strength on this sad day and a hug for molly too. she's had a wonderful life with you.

[Budsters Mom]

I'm back. It's lunchtime, but I only have enough time to run to the bathroom today. You are getting your message from there. That proves that you're special. rarely do I email anyone from the bathroom. ;) Thank goodness!

Staying with you, Molly and Daniel

Siri just told me that you are three hours ahead of me. I am with you all the way.

[Joan2517]

Dear Sharlene,

My heart is breaking for you and I know nothing I say will ease the pain. Just know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. Molly will get to see the faces she loves the most as she passes and I hope that will help you in your sorrow. You know how much I wanted to be with Lena...

Love to you and your family...

[Tina]

Keeping you, Daniel and our precious Molly in my heart. Sending strength and love to you Sharlene. We are all around to hold you up and give support. xo

[labblab]

I'm here (and there with you) too, Sharlene. Fare thee well on your journey, sweetie Molly. Sending my love to all.

[molly muffin]

The brightest star in the sky tonight will be our Molly muffin.
I love you Molly Muffin Always and forever your mummy and daddy.
My heart is broken into a million different pieces. It doesn't feel like our home and lives will ever be the same without you and the joy you brought to so many. You where loved by so many baby girl.

[Budsters Mom]

FLY FREE LITTLE DIVA!!!The others are all there at the bridge to welcome you.

(((((((((((((Hugs))))))))))))))

[spdd]

My deepest, heartfelt sympathies Sharlene. Keesh was there to help her too along with all our other babies. My heart is with you.... and I'm so sad for you.

[labblab]

Tears are flowing here, too, for the loss of our girl. I am so sorry, Sharlene. She was so special and truly so loved. Thank you so much for coming back to us and letting us know. I will be looking up tonight to see Molly's star, shining just as brightly as her spirit.

[Joan2517]

Oh, Sharlene....I am sorry beyond words.

[addy]

Cried all the way home for you, Daniel and Molly.

We will all go look at the sky tonight to see Molly and know her spirit.

Words can't erase the pain, sometimes time doesn't either.

Molly knows how much she was loved, Sharlene. She knows.

Love you

[judymaggie]

Sharlene -- I am crying for you and Daniel. I, too, will be looking up a Molly's star tonight. She is not alone but is surrounded by all our fur angels. Please be gentle with yourself and know that we are all with you and Daniel in spirit.

[Harley PoMMom]

Sharlene and Daniel,

I am so, so sorry. Our Diva sure was a very special girl, just like her Mom is. I know words can not ease the pain you and Daniel are feeling, please know we are here for you, Sharlene, with outstretched arms and ready to hold you and Daniel close.

Godspeed precious Molly

With my deepest sympathy,
Lori

[Tina]

My most heartfelt sympathy Sharlene, words can't properly express the sadness I feel. Tears are falling here too. My heart goes out to you and Daniel, I am so sorry.

I will be looking at the sky to see Molly's star tonight. It is supposed to storm here, but if it rains, I will just know that even the sky is crying. Ever on beautiful girl. xo

[Budsters Mom]

It is still light here (5:50PM). I am waiting for the dark and the stars. Taking Rosie for a starlight walk in memory of Molly. Will be hunting out the brightest and most beautiful star in the sky. That will be our Little Muffin.

In the meantime, I remain here for you and Daniel. There is nothing that I can say that will make you feel any better right now. Just know how much we all care. xxxoooo

[mcdavis]

I am so sorry Sharlene. Henry and I have been outside to wave the brightest star on her way to the Rainbow Bridge where our furangels are waiting.

[addy]

Our Molly Muffin's star was bright, right over my head.

Could not miss it, no not our Miss Diva Molly.

Truly brightest star in the sky.

Til then Molly.

[DoxieMama]

We are here for you, Sharlene. I am so very very sorry.

Run free, sweet Molly. You are loved and missed so very much.

[LauraA]

I am so sorry Sharlene :( Molly truly was a star, testament to this is the fact there are people all over the globe shedding many tears for this precious Diva that has melted so many hearts. Everything seems so empty when they leave, and just when we think that there are no more tears left the grief hits and they start streaming down your cheek again. You and Daniel are amazing fur parents and Molly knew how loved she was from the first day you met to the last.

[Budsters Mom]

I saw it too Addy! Definitely Molly's star. So bright and beautiful.

[drcd279]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I know the pain you're experiencing but take comfort in knowing you gave her the best life - she was always safest with you. Now she's no longer suffering and she'll always be connected to you.

[Bailey's Mom]

I am sorry, Sharlene. I have gone through this twice......and yet I still got Bailey. Palmer went very peacefully. He was in my lap surrounded by my arms and voice. I absolutely knew we were doing the most selfless, loving act for Palmer. He became whole again, was free of pain. He was romping through the fields and making so many new friends.
There are some articles that members sent to me which I found especially comforting. As the days go by, I will post one, here and there. Maybe they will help comfort you as well. You did absolutely everything that could be done. Do not look back or second guess. What you did was out of love and there is no more pure form of love, in my opinion.
I am taking an overnight trip tomorrow, but I will try to wrestle our iPod out of Bob's fingers and keep in touch. I remember all too well the pain. I firmly believe the only way to survive these experiences is to walk through them. Let your feelings come as they will. There is no time table. There is no right or wrong way to grieve. People who have experienced the love and the loss of a pet will understand. Do NOT listen to those who have not been through this, yet may feel free to instruct you on how to handle your days now.

Feel free to come here and yell, cry or whatever. All of us are here to help you. We will listen and listen. Finally, thank you for keeping us updated as things went along. Many of us love Molly as if she were our own. I am so very glad you got to spend time cuddling together. I think the communication skills are acute at that stage. They really feel your love and trust. They feel safe with you there.

I hope you have a peaceful, restful night. If you do not, someone will be here to chat with you. Molly was so very lucky to have you for her Mom.
Hugs,
Sus

[Budsters Mom]

Beautifully said Sus. You said so eloquently what we are all feeling. Thank you so much.

We truly are a family here and our babies are dearly loved and cherished by all. We will miss our little muffin so very much.

[Spiceysmum]

Dear Sharlene,
My thoughts are with you both at this sad time. Molly will be missed by so many.
Linda x

[Trish]

Little dog Molly
You have left massive footprints on our hearts. Such a big hole for your Mum and Dad, we will miss you and remember you always you special wee girl xxxxxxxxx

[labblab]

Oh my. First quiet morning, and it is very hard for us all but I know a million times harder for you and Daniel.

Luna and I saw Molly's star, too. Couldn't miss it! So bright and beautiful, just like our girl.

Sending much love your way.

[addy]

First mornings are just plain awful.

Thinking of you and will keep Molly's thread on top today, in honor of our special Diva

[Squirt's Mom]

Dear Sharlene,

I know how shattered you are today, dear lady, and what the days ahead will bring. Just remember this was the best gift you ever gave our little diva - freedom from a failing body. One of our members a long time ago said we do this so we can take their pain, freeing them from it, making it our own. Today she is strong once again, her coat full and fluffy, her eyes bright and shining. She's not alone - she is surrounded by all who ever knew her and by new friends like Squirt and Lulu and Peg and so many others. And I know that one day, when your job here on Earth is done, Molly will be waiting, her tail wagging too fast to see and barking joyfully, to greet you as you walk across The Bridge.

For now, we will cry with you, hold your hand, offer words to sooth your Soul until you can breath a bit again. You are not alone either.

Our deepest sympathies to you and Daniel,
Leslie, Trinket, Sophie, Fox, and all our Angels


May you know that absence is full

Of tender presence and that

Nothing is ever lost or forgotten.

May the absences in your life be full of eternal echo.

May you sense around you the secret

Elsewhere which holds the presences

That have left your life.

May you be generous in your embrace of loss.

May the sore of your grief turn into a well

Of seamless presence.

May your compassion reach out to the ones

We never hear from and may you have

The courage to speak out for the excluded ones.

May you become the gracious

And passionate subject of your own life.

May you not disrespect your mystery

Through brittle words or false belonging.

May you be embraced by God in whom

Dawn and twilight are one and may

Your longing inhabit its deepest dreams

Within the shelter of the Great Belonging.

From John O’Donohue’s Eternal Echoes-Exploring our Hunger to Belong

[Harley PoMMom]

Tons of comforting and loving hugs being sent to you and Daniel.

[Tammysmom]

Dear Sharlene and Daniel , Mike and I are so very sorry for the loss of your precious Molly Muffin. You both are in are thoughts and prayers. Hugs & Hugs. Brianna & Mike

[Joan2517]

Thinking of you today, Sharlene...feeling your sorrow and pain.

[DoxieMama]

You and Molly are foremost in my thoughts. As I went through my evening last night, and morning tasks today, I thought of you. How I wish we could take away your pain and make it ours. We can only offer to listen, to comfort, to sit with you as much as you need.

I was thinking this morning how people say, "I know how you feel" or something of the sort. Personally, I think it is more that "I remember how I felt in a similar circumstance". We know how we felt, and can only imagine your feelings now.

I know you know... we are here. We shall remain here for you, as long and as often as you need. And then maybe a little while longer...

[molly muffin]

Yesterday was horrible. Today is more so. The house is full of her presence and yet she is not here. The gardens ring with the sound of her nails scampering here, there and everywhere looking for the next good smell and yet she is not there. The street is filled with unread mail left on the trees she loved yet she is not there to read them and leave her reply. She is everywhere and yet nowhere.
It is only us humans still here. Seeing her in every place that we look and yet seeing nothing.
She left us and took our joy with her. The memories we share and should be laughing at hurt too much and bring only tears and gut wrenching sobs of sound to fill the silence left behind.
We cling to each other and soak the others shirt with our sorrow. Then walk away as it is too hard to see the pain we feel reflected back on the others face.

[Joan2517]

Exactly...it is so hard. Fall is right around the corner and Lena loved it...the fires in the fireplaces, the heater outside and all of us wrapped up in blankets sitting on the deck in the dark, the leaves to scuffle through.

The memories are all around us, but the silence creeps in. I want to hear her and see her in all her favorite spots...and I still cry when I try to talk about her. I can smile in my thoughts, but the words make it too real and I still can't do it.

The hardest part of loving them is when we have to let them go. My heart hurts for you and Daniel, Sharlene...

[labblab]

((((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))

[Scoovale]

Hi Sharlene,
I am so sorry. I wish I could tell you more and make the pain go away... but remember that you gave Molly a wonderful life full with love and tenderness, and she did the same. You were meant to be together and she was meant to be with at the end. I am sure that she loved you until the last moment!


Hold on!

Valentina

[judymaggie]

Sharlene & Daniel -- I am hoping these simple words will help you today.


A Simple Message From Your Pet

by Ken D. Conover

To have loved and then said farewell is better than to have never loved at all.
For all of the times that you stooped and touched my head, fed me my favorite treat and returned the love that I so unconditionally gave to you. For the care that you gave to me so unselfishly. For all these things I am grateful and thankful.
I ask that you grieve not for the loss but rejoice in the fact that we lived, loved and touched each other's lives.
My life was fuller because you were there, not as owner, but as my friend.
Today, I am as I was in my youth. The grass is always green, butterflies flit among the flowers and the sun shines gently down upon all of God's creatures. There is no sickness, no aching joints and no regrets and no aging.
We await the arrival of our lifelong companions and know that togetherness is forever. You live in our hearts as we do in yours.
Companions such as you are very rare and unique. Don't hold the love that you have within yourself. Give it to another like me and then I will live forever. For love never really dies and you are loved and missed as surely as we are.

[Harley PoMMom]

((((((Hugs))))))

[Budsters Mom]

I totally agree with you Sharlene. Other than the fact that we now know that our sweet diva is puppy like once more and pain free, that doesn't change the fact that this all SUCKS!!! The quiet can be deafening. The pain is overwhelming. It's as if time stands still. We understand sweetie. We really do. xxxooo

[scoora]

Sharlene, I am so, so sorry to hear about sweet Molly. It brought tears to my eyes. I know how it feels. It hurts!
Sending love and HUGS to you and your family!

[Whiskey's Mom]

My thoughts are with you, my heart is breaking for you. So very sorry.

[Tina]

Dear Sharlene, I have been thinking of you and Daniel all day, and holding you both in my heart on this most difficult of days. Sending love and huge (((((hugs))))) xoxo

[Bailey's Mom]

That's a very nice piece, Judy.
Sharlene, I had forgotten about the tear soaked shirt.
I know how this sucks ....and it's just not fair!!! I'm glad you're sharing your feelings. I'm thinking of you and Daniel. Be gentle with yourselves.

Love,
Sus

[Squirt's Mom]

Another day with its own 'firsts' ahead. Take it slow, remember to breath, scream as needed. And be gentle with yourself.

((((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))) )))))))
Leslie and the gang

[addy]

Hi Sharlene,
To the top for one more day. Thinking of you.

[labblab]

As Shana so rightly pointed out yesterday, none of us can know exactly how you are feeling. For me, though, when Barkis died the silence and emptiness of the house was the very worst part and seemed inescapable. I had left my job a couple of years earlier, so I had been home with him 24/7 through all the hardest days of his illness. Suddenly there was nothing for me to do, and nowhere for me to turn for distraction. Oh how I suffered. That's why Peg was my saving grace when she came to us even earlier than expected. This time, losing her has also broken my heart. But having Luna still here with me has allowed things to be somewhat different. I still have a schedule, there is still a companion nearby, the house is not quiet. The hours of each day are more bearable even though the grief remains.

I don't know whether the kids and their cats are still slated to take up temporary residence with you. If so, I also don't know whether that will help or make things harder. The house won't be quiet, that's for sure. But you also won't have the peace and space to grieve for Molly as you otherwise might, and that may be rough. But the kids and the cats are a part of life, and I do believe one of the lessons our pups are here to teach us is to live our lives to the fullest. To embrace the moment. So if the kids are still coming, I surely hope they will end up being a positive distraction from the pain of your loss. I guess you will find out soon. :o

Continuing to send you and Daniel my warmest thoughts.

[molly muffin]

The cats and the kids are still moving in, probably mid October till their house can be moved into, they are hoping before Christmas.

I agree, it is the silence and emptiness that is the heart breaker.

This morning has been tough. I had to tell my house cleaner when she came today. She and Molly adored each other and have seen each other every week for the last 5 years. It was not an easy thing to do and she too is heart broken, so we are both going through the house in tears. I'm going to need way more boxes of Kleenex.

Yesterday I mad the final arrangements for molly with the vet and she should be home next week.

I don't know if it will be better or worse with the kids here. Right now I am still in the don't want to see anyone stage. I can type about molly but I can't speak the words without breaking into tears. Daniel and I both are just trying to find our way. He told me we will be okay and we'll make it through this. It's just going to be a long road and take time. Somehow we will learn what our new reality and daily lives will be like without her. It just seems so unimaginable right now.

It's not that I want her back (although I do) it is that I want her back the way she was before she got so sick, because i know at the end, she was ready to move on and she was tired, her body giving out. That was no life.

But oh, the molly before she got sick was such a joy to know and share your life with. She was always so happy. I never in my life have seen such a happy dog all the time and playful and demanding. If she didn't like something she let you know what it was and how she wanted it fixed.

I think her personality was so big that it makes her not being here even harder to come to terms with. I know that is the case for both Daniel and myself. The silence is just deafening.

I haven't gone into the office this week. Today is my first day back, working from home. I don't know how I will deal the first day I come home and she isn't at the door to greet me. That has been especially hard for Daniel already. I tend to start hyperventilating when I have those moments of not seeing her at the door and so I'm trying to learn how best to deal with that. I've only gone out in the car once and that was to the vet yesterday.
I've only ever done that when I got claustrophobic.

Her window seat that she loved so much and spent time every day in, we have made into a different area for her, with her picture and her toys on it. We'll add a few plants, but it will always be mollys window seat.

[labblab]

I am the kind of person who likes to have reasons and explanations. I like things to make sense. I think that's partly why I was so blind-sided by the intensity of my grief over Barkis. It far defied any experience of death or loss I had previously suffered. And "over a dog?" as some people might say.

I now know I can't understand it in any rational way, but I do believe the relationship between human and beloved dog is different from any other relationship. (Mind you, I grew up with cats and I adore cats. But dogs are different). There is some bond that is so deep and magical. I think it must spring from some instinctive memory passed down in our DNA from the earliest humans and the first dogs huddled together around the firepit. That is why it feels to us like a part of us dies right along with our dogs.

I know I cannot ease your pain in any way, Sharlene. But I truly hope that you will keep writing to us and telling us how you and Daniel are doing. Because when we say "we understand," it's because we have felt that same deep and abiding love, and then the loss. Many people in the world have never felt that, and so they try to minimize or gloss over what has happened. But we will never do that. Molly's loss is huge, and we know it will take a long time for you to find your new path forward.

[Harley PoMMom]

It definitely leaves a huge whole in your heart when you lose them, even though we know the decision that we've made to release them was the right thing to do it does not make it any easier, their loss is still so very hard to deal with.

When Sampson passed, my cat Alex, was my saving grace. Growing up Alex was never a lap cat, he'd sooner swat ya than let you pet him. However when Sampson was gone it seemed that Alex knew I was so sad and he started to be more loving and would even climb up on my lap. Sampson always slept in the bed with me and when he was gone I just couldn't bring myself to sleep in that bed without him, so I would fall asleep in my recliner in front of the TV. Many of nights Alex would jump up on my lap and we would sleep on that recliner, which we still do.

Your whole life changes when you lose your beloved furbaby and it takes time to fall into a new routine.

Sending you and Daniel tons of consoling and loving hugs.

More hugs and love, Lori

[Joan2517]

That is how it is for me with Lena. I have had so many birds, cats and dogs in my 60 years, and I have loved each of them dearly.

But Lena was my heart and I still can't talk about her without crying. Like you, Sharlene, I can write (and cry), but to speak the words out loud brings on sobbing that is uncontrollable...so of course, no one will bring up her name and if I do, I can empty a room in a matter of seconds.

If I hadn't had the other dogs, and then Sibbie, to take care of, I would probably still be on the couch where we spent so many of our mornings and nights together. I get anxious now when I am out of the house and only feel better when I pick Sibbie up from my husband's office and get home to Gable, Cooper and Doree, where all my memories of Lee surround me.

But to love and be loved by one of our fur babies is such a wonderful gift. Losing them is awful, they just don't live long enough...

Thinking of you and sending comforting thoughts....

[DoxieMama]

My heart just aches for all of you who have experienced the loss of a pet, only to be confronted by the silence of an empty house. When our first real dog Jupiter passed, our home was still full with Visuddha and our new puppy at the time, Jackson. I do know the silence of an empty house from when my kids left, but even then, I still had the dogs and cats to care for and keep me on a regular routine. I honestly can only imagine how difficult that is for you now.

Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers, with much love.
Shana

[molly muffin]

I think that is the biggest problem I am having. There is only Daniel and I now and no other pets in the house. Nothing moves or makes that noise or needs attention or to just be loved on. It is killing me that silence.

When I am here alone, as I am when I work from home, I start to feel nauseous and panicky. I just don't know what to do with myself and so I am doing all kinds of things to keep me busy.
Joan, I know that sobbing well, as probably does most of my neighbors as I go outside so often because the house is unbearable to be in. Then I end up sobbing out there. I'm sure they can hear me as I can't seem to quiet it down once it starts.

That's it of course, Molly was my heart dog. I loved Tasha but I don't remember it being this bad with her loss. Tipsy was my heart cat and I haven't been able to to have another cat after him. His loss, also kidney failure, I didn't get out of bed for days.

My friend told me much the same thing Marianne, he has had cats but the bond he had with his dog went beyond anything else. It must go back ages and ages to human - dog bonding, as it really is so profound. I know Daniel was not at all ready for what he feels and felt for molly. He is beyond devastated and I don't think he ever wants another one it has hurt him so badly. I don't know if I can do that, I need animals in my life somehow. He swore after Tasha no more, then I was so sad and lonely without one that he gave him. He in fact picked molly out of the rescue, put her in his arms and never put her down till he finally had to hand her over to me to drive. His bond was instantaneous and it never became anything other than all complete. It was like that for both of us. I imagine it is why we are both having such a hard time now.

I can sympathize with the recliner Lori. My problem is that molly always woke me up from the recliner and said, mum time to go to bed, take me upstairs. She would huff at me till I woke up and then walk to the stairs and wait for her "lift" up. In her younger days she would growl while sitting on the steps till we came to bed with her. She never wanted to go alone.

Oh for those days back, what I wouldn't give.

[apollo6]

My dear sweet Sharlene
I am crying while writing this, in shock, in pain. Our sweet Molly Muffin may she be free. I will post later. You have been so strong for so many of us. Now it is time for us to be there for you ,a shoulder to lean on an ear to listen, love to comfort you. I always pictured Molly as a spunky, very independent little girl. I feel somehow she told me to post. I usually do not come here very often. I am devasted for your lose. I always enjoyed hearing about Molly's little victories.
I will post later.
In memory of Molly's star .
Love Sonja,Apollo

[apollo6]

This is for you and Molly

There's something missing in my home,
I feel it day and night, I know it will take time and strength before things feel quite right.
But just for now, I need to mourn, My heart -- it needs to mend.
Though some may say, "It's just a pet," I know I've lost a friend.
You've brought such laughter to my home, and richness to my days.
A constant friend through joy or loss with gentle, loving ways.
Companion, friend, and confidante, A friend I won't forget.
You'll live forever in my heart, Sweet Molly

Dear Lord, please open your gates and call St. Francis to come escort my Molly across the Rainbow Bridge.
Assign her to a place of honor, for she has been a faithful servant and has always done her best to please me.
Bless the hands that send her to you, for they are doing so in love and compassion, freeing her from pain and suffering.
Grant me the strength not to dwell on my loss.
Help me remember the details of her life with the love she has shown me.
And grant me the courage to honor her by sharing those memories with others.
Let her remember me as well and let her know that I will always love her.
And when it’s my time to pass over into your paradise, please allow her to accompany those who will bring me home.
Thank you, Lord, for the gift of her companionship and for the time we’ve had together. And thank you, Lord,
for granting me the strength to give her to you now. Amen.


in memory to Molly
Love Sonja and Apollo

[Joan2517]

Oh, Sonja...that is so beautiful...and I'm at my desk crying again. Thank God my coworkers have learned to ignore the sniffling coming out of my office.

[DoxieMama]

He in fact picked molly out of the rescue, put her in his arms and never put her down till he finally had to hand her over to me to drive. His bond was instantaneous and it never became anything other than all complete. It was like that for both of us. I imagine it is why we are both having such a hard time now.

That is so beautiful, Sharlene. I hope that some day your memories like this one will be something you and Daniel can hold onto and think of with joy and love.

Many more hugs your way...


Oh, Sonja...that is so beautiful...and I'm at my desk crying again. Thank God my coworkers have learned to ignore the sniffling coming out of my office.

Me too Joan, me too.

[Budsters Mom]

So,so, hard.:o ((((((((hugs))))))))

[labblab]

The cats and the kids are still moving in, probably mid October till their house can be moved into, they are hoping before Christmas.
Well, in terms of her own self-preservation, our Diva did a good job of engineering the timing of her exit. "Won't have to deal with no stinkin' cats, mom and dad. You will have to wrangle them all on your own!" :o :o ;)

In honesty, I do feel as though Peg's timing held somewhat of a blessing for her as well. She left us right before the awful heat of this summer had set in. At the end, all she could really do outside was just go sit in her soft grass. But with her black coat, she would have been miserable had she tried to venture out in the sun, and by mid-summer her grass had turned all brown and brittle. :(

At least you and Daniel will have a month to yourselves beforehand. And perhaps by mid-October, you truly will welcome the hustle and bustle. Right now it is impossible to look ahead at all. But perhaps a full house will be a good thing by then, or at least, a good thing for most of the time. I will surely hope so.

[spdd]

I know what you say about the deafening silence. I came to a completely empty house and by 2 days later, I couldn't get up off the floor from the completely overwhelming grief. I literally wailed and was by myself with no one to rely on . I had to remove his bowl, toys and everything that was his and put them out of sight... only because it would put me in a complete tailspin. I remember saying that I grieved more for "mah boy" then I did for my own mother and felt so guilty about that. I believe it is because they depended on us for their day to day living and in return gave us complete entertainment and love. The dependency on us is a huge factor in the grief. Sharlene, I personally dreaded this day for you... and Leslie and I wept all day for you quietly between on our Facebook. We sooo knew how you would feel, cause our heart babies are gone. Every step of the way in this process we are with you, and I'm now 21 months into this and the tears can come still unexpectedly and at inappropriate times. I never apologize for it.. it just shows how greatly they affected our lives the bond and unconditional love we had for them and they had for us. On here they said to me, minute by minute, day by day, week by week and so on. I pray for comfort for you and Daniel. When Molly returns it starts all over again, that's why I kept Keesh with me until he could go home with me again. Love you sweetie.. and everyday I know how that particular day is going to affect you. Just wish I could make it all better for you...

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS AND MORE HUGS))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

[Whiskey's Mom]

Bless all of you wonderful people for being here for Sharlene. I've been hiding in the bathroom at work, crying as I read all the posts. Whiskey is the only dog I've ever had, so I have no experiences to share, but I do understand because he is truly the dog of my heart. He knows me better than I know myself. He has been there for me and my family through good times and terrible times. I know he won't be with me forever, so I can sympathize with everything you're saying about the emptiness you feel. Please take care of yourselves, and know that I too share your sorrow.
Annie

P.S. I'm picturing Miss Molly with sparkly, glittery angel wings

[Help4Bailey]

Sharlene,

I am so very sorry to hear about Molly's passing. I was hoping that when you wrote to me about my Bailey's recent passing that Molly would be OK. Helping our sweet pups cross over the Rainbow Bridge is such a heart wrenching thing to do. I'm still in tears on a daily basis and I know it will be awhile before things get better. The void in our house is very noticeable too. Molly like Bailey are free from their very ailing bodies and can romp and play freely now. May your wonderful memories of Molly help to heal your broken heart. With heartfelt sympathy, Lynette.

[Renee]

Hi Sharlene, I am sorry I am late, but I wanted you to know that I have been thinking of you and beautiful Molly. I hope you are being kind to yourself right now.

[Squirt's Mom]

A Dogs Message from Heaven

I am sending you this message as I can see you are still having struggles with coping each day since my passing.

You may walk in darkness and your heart is broken with my absence. I haven't left you as you hold me in your heart. Please don't be sad as the light will come shinning through for you. For each day of sunshine, think of it as reminder of me beaming down on you. Be happy that I am no longer in pain from sickness. I don't want you grieving for me for long as it makes me sad to see you in so much hurt. Don't dwell on the guilt you feel for making decisions we both know you had to do and I thank you for releasing me of my sickness.

Cry if you need to, miss me if you must, but don't worry about me, I'm in a place I love.

Yesterday I talked with the Creator and he said you'd come one day. I wanted you to know this. So you see I'm happy and I am free. There's nothing to worry me. Dry your eyes and make plans to see me again. I will look for you and when you get here, you will see what a wonderful place this is.

Let me tell you what it's like here in this wonderful place. There are no clouds or dreary rain…Just lot of blue sky and sunshine casted on us from His most gracious presence. There are miles of green grassy fields and meadows of beautiful flowers.

There are no cruel humans to hurt us, just the keepers who have been specially chosen to care for us...

We all get along here large and small. Some of us had a pretty rough life while others were very spoiled. We run and play tag or chase balls. We can be lazy as we want and take long naps. The Creator checks on us each day.

I have met many of your friend’s fur kids here.

There is never a sad moment. Just so much to keep busy....We get a lot of new kids arriving daily and is fun to show them the ropes here.

We are here waiting here for you when your purpose on Earth is complete. My wish for you is to be happy for me and not sad. It will be the most happiest of reunions and I will lick away all your tears. There will be nothing but good times for ever and ever.

I will let you feel my presence if you will just have faith and allow it to happen.

When the time is right, and it will come, I want you to take in another fur kid to care for just as you cared for me and protected me from all harm and gave me the security that I needed all those years. They deserve the life I had with you. Don't think of it as replacing me but giving another the love you have inside you to bring joy to another. I felt honored to a part of your life and you gave me so much of yourself.... That will always be special.

You were my life and I will always love you for that.

I am not that far away and I will be close to you in spirit and will remain in your heart. That is the bond that connects us. Do not think of me when I was at my worst but all the great memories we shared together. I hate to see you cry. I am happy here so be glad for me.

I want to be remembered for all the silly things I did and things we did together. We had some great times together.... So cherish those memories.

So my best friend, until your task on Earth is finished, take care of yourself and help another less fortunate kid to know the love I shared with you and you will be forever rewarded. You will know when the time is right.

Love you Forever,
Your 4 legged soul-mate, Molly.

Author...Kay Faulkner

[Joan2517]

Oh, Leslie...how beautiful...and I'm crying at my desk again.

[molly muffin]

You guys are the BEST!!!! I can't think you enough for all the support in the past years and through this truly horrible ordeal.
Today is better than yesterday. I know all days won't be good or bad, they will be roller coasters of moments in time.
Through the years I've walked this path with many of you who also lost your furbabies and what I know is that no matter how many times we walk the walk together, it always brings our own pain back to us and I thank those of you who are enduring your own pain again by being there for me and molly. It's isn't nothing, it's HUGE and I'm grateful.
Yes I have been on the floor, holding her sheep skin rug, wailing too. And I likely will be again.
There is nothing that just makes it better, only time passing can make the cut less sharp and the tears flow less often.
Still thank you each and every one. It's comforting to not be on this journey as alone as it is often feels like you are when these moments in life come around.
As long as we have this forum, we have family who understands.

[DoxieMama]

Sharlene, you are an amazing woman. I am in awe that you are taking the time to respond to so many others on their threads now. I'm not sure I'll have the strength to do so in similar circumstances.

More (((hugs))) your way...

[Harley PoMMom]

Sharlene, you are an amazing woman.

Yep, I definitely second that, our Sharlene is a wonderful person!

[Joan2517]

And we love her!

[Bo's Mom]

Oh I just read about Molly. I am so terribly sorry and I know Molly was met at the Bridge by all her buddies that want to show her all the best fields to run free. She is shining brightly in the sky with all the others who watch over us always. You will always be missed sweet Molly.

[Joan2517]

Still thank you each and every one. It's comforting to not be on this journey as alone as it is often feels like you are when these moments in life come around.
As long as we have this forum, we have family who understands.

You are so right, Sharlene, t is comforting to have this family...the only good thing that came from Lena's diagnosis and then death, was having found this forum.

This is where I can come and be the nutty animal lover that everyone thinks I am, and it's perfectly normal here. I have new friends from all over the world, who feel the way I do; who can grieve and mourn for not just our own fur babies, but for all the others; and it's okay.

We can cry, scream, and grieve for as long as we need to, and not feel like we have to keep it to ourselves because others think we should be over it by now...but not here.

Here we can take as long as we need to, talk about it as much as we need to; and be there for all the rest who are going through it now, or still.

This forum has been a Godsend to me, a place I can express my grief, not just for Lee, but for all of our babies.

And it's also a place to celebrate good news for those who are having success with treatment. The fact that we can still feel that way just goes to show what a great bunch of people are on this site!

[Budsters Mom]

I miss her too! Such a spunky little Diva. ((((hugs))))

Yes, Sharlene is always right there first for all of us. I once asked her to adopt me, but she must have thought I was kidding. I wasn't.;)

We are stronger together. ((((Hugs))))

[apollo6]

Dear Sharlene
Last night was a full moon and all I could say was shine bright Molly Muffin. We all grieve in our own way. Grieve in the way you need to. We are hear to hold your hand. The only thing that would make it better would be to have Molly back healthy and whole. But that is not to be. There is never enough time with these Angels. They are on loan from heaven and the imprint they leave on us is so deep, in our hearts and souls. They make us better people. It has been 4 years since Apollo died and I miss him every day.
Love Sonja,Apollo

[Squirt's Mom]

Still holding you and Daniel in my thoughts and prayers.

[judymaggie]

Sharlene, you are an amazing woman. I am in awe that you are taking the time to respond to so many others on their threads now. I'm not sure I'll have the strength to do so in similar circumstances.

Sharlene -- Shana said it perfectly. I know Abbie's time is in the not so distant future and I can only hope that I will be able to handle it with the grace and courage you have shown.

[molly muffin]

In it's own way it is easier to respond to others than it is to think of what myself and Daniel are going through.

I follow in the footsteps of some very awesome people on this forum who have lost their own furbabies and still are here, helping out others. If it where not for them willing to do that, then we would have no forum, no home. We HAVE to help others even after our own have gone on from this world because I cannot imagine not having this forum to come to. This home, this safe haven.
We have awesome people here and it is comforting to know how much they understand, the fear of diagnosis, the ups and downs of treatment and some day, hopefully far in the future the pain of loss.
Molly didn't pass from cushings, it was in the end, as the IMS always told me it would be, the kidneys that failed her. She was treated for cushings successfully, with the regular up and downs of dosages and ACTH tests all the time. I was told years ago, when I joined here, that often it is not the cushings but other things that occur that will be my biggest issue and those who told me that were right. Dogs get older and their bodies just like ours start to fail and things happen to those bodies that can't always be controlled and treated.
It doesn't make it any easier to bear, but it is the cycle of life I suppose.

Here I am just rambling on. I think I'm just putting my thoughts out there for the world to read. Today I am emotional and logical both. Logic unfortunately cannot cure a broken heart.

[mcdavis]

Just dropped by to tell you that we're thinking of you all.

I think it can be therapeutic to help others when we're grieving. When we lost Hamish I found it very helpful to take some of his things to the local SPCA as I knew they would help other dogs.

[molly muffin]

Oh gosh yes. I can't get rid of mollys things right now. Not her beds and stuff. I'm going to vacuum pack it I think.

I was looking at the local shelters and rescues this week to see about taking over some canned food, prescription that I know would cost them loads of money, and instead I see all the precious animals up for adoption and it just broke my heart. I do need to do that though.

[mcdavis]

Oh golly, sorry no I wasn't suggesting you should get rid of Molly's stuff. Please don't think I was.
I still have some of Hamish's toys and his favourite bed, but I took food, meds, other pills, shampoos, plus other toys, beds, towels, blankets, etc. and it did make me feel better knowing the dogs there would be more comfortable as a result.

[Joan2517]

I still can't get rid of anything of Lee's...even her meds as much as I hated having her on them. They have her name on the bottles...and it's kind of a journal of what was wrong and when.

No one will be wearing her Halloween shirt of Christmas dresses, those will be packed away with other mementos.

Sibbie has a brand new Halloween costume (2 in fact, as both grandsons wanted something different), but I will probably dress Doree in the other as she loves to get dressed up.

[Squirt's Mom]

I still have the last batch of food I made for Squirt in the freezer, some of her meds in the cabinets tho they are long expired...I just can't throw them out yet, can't. I have taken that food out I know 50 times then end up standing there with the freezer door open, tears flowing, rubbing the package, seeing her face watching me as I made a batch. Back in the freezer it goes. I just can't....

[molly muffin]

No I didn't think you were suggesting that at all! I was just saying there where some things I can't get rid of, but some things I do need to get rid of, that can help others.

We're good, just the normal typing misunderstanding. I understood what you meant. :)

[Bo's Mom]

I still have Bo's newborn toy packed with his ashes in a memento box. I go to that toy and just smell it sometimes and remember the days he would shake it around and then end up sleeping on it....we gave it the name "Flat Stanley". Just brings back the great memories I have. Looking at the stars tonight knowing they are out watching over us. ((((HUGS)))) to you, Sharlene!!

[scoora]

Sharlene, Just wanted to say I'm thinking of you.

It's been over 3 years since Scoop passed and I still have his things.

[mcdavis]

No I didn't think you were suggesting that at all! I was just saying there where some things I can't get rid of, but some things I do need to get rid of, that can help others.

We're good, just the normal typing misunderstanding. I understood what you meant. :)

Good. Just hated the thought that I might have upset you.

[apollo6]

Dear Sharlene
Now is not the time to be thinking about getting rid of Molly's things. You are right in the middle of grieving and can not think straight. It can wait. When Apollo died the only thing I could get rid of was all the medications. I put some of the medications and food aside and gave them away when I was ready. But you do not have to do it today. I was hysterically throwing all the bottles away, screaming at the top of my lungs. I went through him not eating the last week of his life, trying to get him to eat. When he was really getting ready to die. I finally gave him permission to go. After he died.I would run around the house and just fall on his beds and try to smell his scent. I was so numb I could not think straight. I still have most of Apollo's things and will get rid of a few things when I am ready. You are not ready to let go. It can wait. Let the feeling come out. Just sit with it. You just lost your little girl. You and Daniel need time to heal. Please do not feel you have to do it all now. When the time is right you will keep what you want and give the rest away. But not today. You need to shut the world out and grieve . It is too soon to do any of this.
What I am saying ,you need to grieve in your own way. You need to be kind to yourself and Daniel right now, nothing else. Do not listen to other people. Love always, from one Canadian to another.
Love Sonja and Apollo

[SasAndYunah]

Dear Sharlene (and Daniel),

I just now read the horrible news and I am so very sorry for the loss of sweet and lovable Molly... I remember how I would flee the house to escape the deafening silence and emptiness that surrounded me and I would go for a "walk" in my wheelchair. But once outside, I would flee back to my home because there would be nothing walking beside my wheelchair...and that was unbearable too. No matter what you do, they are not there...and that's impossible to fathom. They are part of every aspect of our life and that's so hard to deal with and to adapt to. I wish there was something I could do or say to make it easier, but I can't... all I can say is that I am thinking of you and Daniel and sending you all my love, strength and courage...

Big hugs,

Saskia and Quincy.

[mytil]

Dearest Sharlene,
I am so sorry - know my heart and prayers are with you two!
Terry

[Joan2517]

When they brought Lena to me that morning, they had washed her and put lotion on her. It didn't smell like her at all and I needed to breath in her scent.

The quilt I had wrapped around her when we rushed to the hospital, I told them to keep it in the oxygen tank with her. Before I left that night, I went in to kiss her and tell her I would see her in the morning and the quilt wasn't there. My mother had made that for me for my 45th birthday. They said she had peed on it and they had it in the laundry bin. I made them take it out and give it to me.

I didn't wash it for days.

The weird thing is that for weeks after she died, I smelled the lotion smell in different places...at work, walking past some stores, in the street. It could be because when they handed her to me I just buried my face in her little body and held her for hours until the vet opened and I brought her to be cremated...

I made my husband cut some of the hair off of her ears, the ears I loved to feel and kiss, and I carry those cuttings in a baggie in my pocketbook and take them out and look at them. Sometimes I open it up and feel them...my kids would say that's gross, but I couldn't care less.

[molly muffin]

I'm not getting rid of "Mollys" personal stuff. But I do have cases of food and unopened bags of treats etc that I need to take somewhere for others to use while they still good. Her blankets and toys and coats, food, water, treat bowls. Those are all here and will stay.

We have the kids moving in soon so lots to be done and will be busy with the baby and cats here too.

So lots to do and Daniel and I are just going to be focusing on each other and our lives for awhile and mourning our loss of a family member. We will get through this. Molly wasn't well. She wasn't happy she felt so bad that last week. Moments of good in a week of over all bad. I know it was right to let her go. That helps. I did the right thing by her. Always. She was our priority.

So now we just carry on and we miss her. That is all there is.

Our first weekend without her will suck. Today I have lots of errands to run as I didn't leave house except to vets for a week at least and did nothing except take care of Molly the week before. Tomorrow we are out all afternoon and night so won't have time to think.

[FemaleK9]

I just read Molly's final chapter. I'm so sorry.

[addy]

Thinking of you as I take a break from my marathon wash day.

Thinking of the years we spent here on the forum, thinking of all those memories!

Girly drinks when we celebrated or waited for news, everyone climbing in cars to go the vets or packing the vets waiting room,
All the laughter and tears, friends from around the world.

Here Molly lives on forever. She is known and loved by so many as are you.

A tribute to you, Sharlene, everyone here stopping by to give you virtual hugs and rembering our Diva.

Group hugs from around the world.

[Harley PoMMom]

Sending hugs to you and Daniel today.

[Squirt's Mom]

I hope you are able to smile today, just once. You may feel like your face is betraying Molly but that isn't the case at all - it is simply a sign of healing a teeny bit and Molly would be happy for that. But I cried for hours after the first time I smiled, feeling guilty. :o

[mypuppy]

Oh Dearest friend Sharlene,
I could not believe that here I log in today, of all days as I celebrate the life of my precious girl who sadly left us 3 years ago today, only to learn our sweet Molly has joined her on that beautiful rainbow bridge. I know that in my heart they are together now watching over us and enJOYing a new and beautiful life. Nevertheless, I feel your great pain as my very own 3 years ago. It hurts, it truly does.
Today and for the remainder of your days without Miss Molly, I am sending those very tight hugs you will need to get you through this, and always know that despite my long absence, my k9cushings babies and their mommys and daddys are ALWAYS in my heart & soul.
Love to you and your family sweet baby doll Sharlene and RIP sweet Molly girl--I LOVE YOU!
OOOOO Jeanette

[Budsters Mom]

Thinking of you and Daniel, and of course our little diva who is now flying free.

Buddy's personal things brought me much comfort. His stuffed friend, Froggy, which he slept with every night and kept nearby during the day, stayed on the foot of my bed (by the wall) for an entire year. His cuddle blanket was there too. As time passed, I didn't need to reach for them during the night, quite as often, but it helped for me to know that they were there. It's been over three years. I still have them nearby and pull them out, whenever I need a good cry. The rest of Buddy's treasured belongings have been inherited by Rosie. Somehow seeing her enjoy them, helps me to feel closer to him.

Keep Molly's things as long as you want or feel the need to. There is no time table for any of this. Do what you feel comfortable with. That is what Molly would want. xxxxoooo

[addy]

Hope you first day back goes as well as it can.

Think of us all hanging around your desk with you. Probably like little random bubbles in the air filled with supportive comments.

I can picture that but don't have the right icon:)

[Bailey's Mom]

What a wonderful image, Addy!
Thinking of you Sharlene.
Hugs,
Sus

[molly muffin]

It's an motion all roller coaster. I was fine yesterday and went back to the office. I was fine today and then the call came. Molly was ready to come home one final time. That was the end of fine for awhile. I got up and walked outside. Luckily this afternoon got busy Nd then it was time to go pick her up. I did so. Got through that, came home and fell asleep till 7:30. Just could t deal with being awake so slept.

I suppose there will be many days that are up and down. Sigh. Don't like this at all.

[Joan2517]

Just sleep, Sharlene...I think it's the body's way of giving our minds a place to rest. A place where they are not gone; a place where we don't have to KNOW; a place where they still ARE.

I still go there...I am a frequent guest...

[apollo6]

dear Sharlene
You need to be kind with yourself and Daniel. It comes in waves and you never know when it will hit. Go with it. Because you loved sweet Molly so much it is only natural to feel this roller coaster of emotions. She was and is your baby and will always be your baby. Grief is awful. You can't think straight, you cry for no reason, you are so tired , your don not know how to get through a day, a minute and second. We are here for you to comfort, support you, give you viral hugs.
Love Sonja , Apollo

[Budsters Mom]

On my dear Sharlene. Doing the right thing for our precious babies does not make it hurt less. It hurts like hell and tears your heart out. The sacrifice is made out of love. I believe that there is no greater love. I had a plan in place for Buddy. I knew he was on borrowed time and every minute was precious. Making the plan was easy. Carrying it out was torture. The emotional rollercoaster is a ride that we all eventually end up having to take. I can't take your pain away. I can't make it any easier for you and Daniel. Just know without a doubt, that you aren't alone. You have all of us and we do understand and will hold your hand for as long as you want us to.

Addy mentioned all of us hanging with you at the office like little thought bubbles. I would be much more intrusive than that. I am like an inquisitive child and would be playing with all your trinkets on your desk and driving you nuts with multiple questions. ;):D. xxxxoooo

[Squirt's Mom]

I know that day. It still sits in my gut, ready to peek out at the least provocation. I go thru it all over again. When Connie came around the corner with that white box in her hand, when she put that white box in my hands, watching my hand open it, seeing that blue velvet bag inside carefully packed, and realizing that was my Sweet Bebe. Not being able to breath. Next thing I remember is sitting in my truck in the clinic parking lot, my head on the steering wheel, sobbing while my hand rested on that white box sitting in the passenger seat where she always did. After that, things just happened and I'm sure I participated but I can't recall.

I still have that white box and the packing inside but Squirt's ashes are now in the beautiful urn Terry and Peter made for her, inside the shrine where she wanted to be. I can see her there every nite when I go to bed and every morning when I wake up and that brings me comfort today.

This does ease and we do find ways to make peace with this immense loss; we find the things that bring us a bit of peace and comfort and cling to them, developing them. And that becomes a sort of ceremony honoring our precious babies, a way to continue expressing our love.

For now, grieve, Sharlene, grieve as you need for as long as you need. There are no rules. We will be with you always.

[Joan2517]

I remember driving to pick her up, but nothing after...I have completely blocked that day from my memory. She was in my bedroom for months, and then I brought her down to our family room where she could be with all of us, just where she always was before and where I think she wanted to be.

[Budsters Mom]

((((((((hugs)))))))))❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[SandyH]

I am so sorry to hear about Molly.

[Allison]

Sharlene, belated hugs.

I just read of your loss of Molly and am so sorry for all you're going through. I still remember the ache of the quiet house after losing my guinea pigs. And I still know how much I cried after losing Lucy, who was my heart cat. Our Gizmo came to us at ten, but his zest for life was sorely missed after he died. Yes, grief is a roller coaster. And even when the roller coaster finally stops, life will be different. How can it be otherwise when one's heart is broken from losing a best friend?

[l4d44]

I'm sorry for your loss Sharlene. :(

Molly is now in Doggy Heaven.

Peace and comfort.

-Mike

[labblab]

Hey Sharlene, just popping in to tell you we love you!

[judymaggie]

Just wanted to send you and Daniel hugs and a-r-o-o-s from Abbie and me!

[apollo6]

Sending loving thoughts.
Sonja and Apollo

[molly muffin]

Thank you everyone :)

We have just been taking it easy and getting past the silence of the house. Finding out new normal. I think we will just always miss our molly as she was a special girl to us.

I got a note from the veterinary hospital today that my vet had made a donation to the pet trust for research to benefit pet health in mollys name. That was so sweet.

We had cards from a couple of our vets too this past week. I do okay until I have to face the "she is gone" factor.

Daniel saying how long do we wait to get another puppy, I miss a puppy in the house, just killed me. I thought it would be him that would be saying no and me begging to fill the silence. Instead it is me, saying i can't discuss this now, we will get one when we are ready. Nothing is every really the way you think it will be.

Molly is home and yet I don't know if I am comforted or not. I really don't know what I am when it comes to everything.

I know one thing. Cushings doesn't scare me near as bad as kidney disease does. I can talk about cushings till the cows come home as they say but mention kidneys and it's terrifying to me.

love you all and thank you so much for the support and love.

[mcdavis]

What a lovely thing for the vet to do, and when the time is right a pooch will appear.

Hugs from Henry and I xx

[Joan2517]

Daniel saying how long do we wait to get another puppy, I miss a puppy in the house, just killed me

I told you...any man who could love a dog as much as he loved Molly, would need to open his heart to another.

[molly muffin]

Yes you where right in that Joan :) Daniel is a guy who needs an animal in his life and even though he (in his words) "wasn't a dog guy" he sure proved himself wrong with molly. She was his special baby and they had little special times just for them. She knew when he drove up and was at the door to meet him, then would jump on his lap to share tiny pieces of a treat, every single day. His is the only lap she was ever willing to jump onto. She come trotting over into my lap if she thought there was food to be had, but for him she would snuggle and actually stay for awhile. Looking back through pictures throughout the years there are tons of him and her crashing together on the couch for a nap. (not a dog guy my foot!) LOLOL

We won't consider anything until after the kids and the cats and baby are into their own home. It would be too much to bring a new puppy/dog, whatever into that sort of crazy life right from the get go. Like with cushing meds, slow is the better option. For all of us. :)

In addition to all of that, I know that it isn't, I want a puppy or I want a dog in the house. The problem is not wanting a dog it is that in fact, like all of us who have lost a dog for any reason, we want That dog back. Not another. That feeling has to subside before even considering anything further. We can't have That dog, it isn't possible and that is something we have to come to terms with I think first. At least I am sure that is what it is in our case. Each of us is different. It took me a year to find molly after tasha passed.

[Joan2517]

Or you could be blindsided like I was....

[molly muffin]

Or you could be blindsided like I was....

There is that. LOL

[Budsters Mom]

Absolutely true Sharlene. I still want THAT dog back, and I have another. The problem is, she is not him. Adorable yes, but NOT HIM!:o


like all of us who have lost a dog for any reason, we want That dog back.

[mcdavis]

Absolutely true Sharlene. I still want THAT dog back, and I have another. The problem is, she is not him. Adorable yes, but NOT HIM!:o

So very true :(
they each have their own place in our hearts, but some have the larger share

[Bailey's Mom]

[So very true :(
they each have their own place in our hearts, but some have the larger share]
I agree....and thank you for helping me feel a little less guilty.
I guess like persons, they have their own special individual traits and personalities. And, for sure, I would never attempt to "replace" an earlier dog. Sometimes there are those dogs that come along and for whatever reason they burrow a tad further down into our hearts and souls. I just need to remember how very lucky I was to have one, maybe two of those very, very special ones.
For now there is Bailey and she is special in her own unique ways. I feel very lucky to have her. She is full of love and joy and hi-jinks. But it is very different from how I experienced Palmer, and before him, Peaches.

You sound like you are doing very well Sharlene. I loved your comment about Koko needing his own bowl and I heartily agree and second that!

Love,
Sus

[rainiebo]

All the posts express my thoughts for you. Prayers and thoughts to you as you recover.

[molly muffin]

Thank you all.

I'd say I'm maintaining. :)

Luckily the kids move is keeping me so busy there isn't any real time to think about myself and how I feel about anything. Not numb, just not focused on it. If that makes sense.

On top of that we've had an acquisition at work that is also keeping me really busy. Then add on the holidays coming and I'm on the social committee so have several events either already on the go, or need to be planned soon, and boy, it feels crazy around here. My table is covered with decorations for a work function this week and I have so many lists that I need a list of the lists!!!

I think we'll revisit the another dog in our lives issue next year. After the cats and kids are in their own place and after winter. I've looked at the rescue site and there are so many adorable dogs in need of a home that I know that is the route we will eventually go when we are ready for that.

In the mean time, I've told friends that after the cats are in their home, that I'll be available for pupsitting duties. :) Baby steps. :)

[Squirt's Mom]

Sounds like you have a lot on your plate as usual this time of year! They will be good for keeping your mind occupied, no question. Don't forget to take a little bit of time for you in the midst of all your upcoming activity. ;) Enjoy as much as you can, laugh often.

btw - puppysitting is nice! :)

[molly muffin]

We got a card from the IMS at the emergency hopsital that molly went to so frequently, this week. It was signed by all the staff that took care of her and they wrote of how they will miss her so much. That made me cry too.
Then the next day I got a letter of a donation to a pet fund that the hospital supports. It does so much good for owners and pets. They made a donation in mollys name.
Gawd this sucks so much.
She made such an impact on our lives. She literally changed our lives. When I think of all my friend in the neighborhood, good friends, I met them all because of molly and our daily, 3 times a day walks. Now I don't see everyone every day as I use to.
One set of neighbors said they thought we must be on vacation and then were just so sad when told molly wasn't with us any longer. They all stopped and said hello to her almost every single day.
She brought them into our lives and we would have missed so much in this wonderful neighborhood if not for her.
gads, I come here and I cry. It sucks. Yet where else could I possible talk about her and have people who understand.

[Budsters Mom]

Totally understand.:o We miss our spunky little diva too!

[Joan2517]

Yes...where else can we go but here...