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StarDeb55
05-20-2009, 09:19 PM
For those of you who remember from cc.net, I posted my 1st Cushpup's story, Barkley. For our new members, I am posting to give you a beacon of hope for this dratted disease.

I adopted Barkley from a local breed rescue when he was 2 years old. He came to me to help heal the hole in my heart from the loss of a miniature poodle who had been a beloved friend of my college & early adult years. Barkley was a Lhasa/Shih Tzu mix. He came to live with my Mom & me, & I think he decided that since these ladies were so nice to give me a kind, loving home, it will be my duty to protect them, & protect our house. Barkley could be quite comical trying to be the big protector. Here is the little 25 lb. pup who is trying to act like the mean, ferocious 100 lb. guard dog. Anyone that would come in the house, he would go nuts, & just bark constantly to let us know that someone was in the house who he really thought didn't need to be there. Mom & I would try our best to get him to knock it off, with absolutely no success. Friends & family basically got used to it. My Mom's youngest sister came to visit us quite frequently, & of course, B would start in on his "rant". My aunt was a retired school teacher. All she did was whip out her misbehaving kid's voice on Barkley, & he absolutely shut up in world record time. My Mom & I just looked at each other, kind of stunned, then broke out in gales of laughter. Any time my aunt would come, she would correct Barkley with the "voice" once, & that would be it for the rest of her visit. Barkley & Harley, both, were a lifeline for me during my Mother's struggle with Alzheimer's. I can't tell you how many times I would come home from the hospital when she was very ill with pneumonia. I would hold on to B, crying my eyes out, asking him what were we going to do if we lose her.

Barkley endured more medical problems than most humans do, & was one of the bravest of God's creatures when it came to facing these problems. Prior to his Cushing's diagnosis, he suffered from extremely severe allergies which manifested as chronic ear infections. He was on a number of medications to control his allergies, thanks to his derm vet, which finally got everything settled down. When B was about 7 years old, he blew a cruciate ligament which had to be repaired twice. The abnormal pre-op lab work, including a sky-high alkaline phosphatase, is what set us on the path to a Cushing's diagnosis. Barkley was very successfully treated with lysodren for almost 8 years with really no major issues from his Cushing's. Unfortunately, at the age of 13, he became very ill, with my GP vet & the derm vet unable to determine the problem. A trip to an IMS is what led to a diagnosis of lymphoma. At 13, with his many problems, I can't lie, I, initially, felt that I would not treat the lymphoma. I did seek a consult with an oncologist, & after hearing that without treatment, B would be gone in 4-6 weeks, I did opt for chemotherapy. I made the decision because I had lost my dearest Mom to the ravages of Alzheimer's, about a year prior to B becoming ill. I was ABSOLUTELY NOT ready to loose him. The chemo that B received give an average remission of 6-8 months. My boy blew those statistics to the moon & back, surviving 20 months with a good quality of life. His oncologist absolutely love him, along with all of the onco techs, said he was one of their star patients. He never gave them any grief, even when he had to lie still for over 2 hours to receive his chemo infusion.

On the day Barkley crossed the bridge, I will have to say that he had been struggling for the past several weeks, & I knew the time was coming. I got home from work that afternoon, came in from the garage. B was always sleeping in underneath the dining room table where he could watch the garage door for me to come in the house. I came in, he struggled out to greet me. I took one look at him, & started crying. I know to this day that he was telling me, "Mom, I am so very tired of feeling bad, all the trips to doctors, & all of the medicine I have to take. Please do the last kind thing that you can for me. With tears streaming down my face, I told him, "OK". We already had appointments with both the derm & onco vets that afternoon, so I loaded him in the car, & away we went.

We went to an exam room in the clinic. Dr. Lewis, his derm vet, came in, took one look at B, & said he was going to get the oncologist. They moved us into an exam room in a section of the clinic that was closed that day, so we could spend some quiet time together. A couple of the onco techs came in, & gave me a ceramic paw print of B that they had made as a keepsake for me. I held him in my lap, told him how grateful I was that he was my friend, & that I would see him, again. Here is the remarkable thing about B's passing, his oncologist, derm vet, his IMS, & several of the onco techs came into the exam room when I was ready to offer their support. His oncologist asked me if I wanted to be there, I told her, "Not really, but I promised Barkley that I would be with him to the end of his journey." The injections were given, & my Barkley was gone. All of us had tears streaming down our faces. I really never knew how truly kind people could be until that afternoon, which was the worst afternoon of my life.

Yes, Barkley was named after Charles Barkley, the NBA basketball star, who played for the Phoenix Suns, among several other teams.

Dearest Barkley, you will always be in my heart.

Debbie

bkdice
05-22-2009, 09:09 AM
Thank you for posting B's story here. If it wasn't for you and B's story, I likely would have lost Niko to Lymphoma months ago - but instead - I have a mature cush pup with his lymphoma in remission for 6+ months now.

labblab
05-22-2009, 11:36 AM
Debbie, thank you so much for once again sharing your touching tribute to Barkley. What a brave boy, and what a brave mom! You were, and will always remain, true companions of the heart.

I feel certain that he would be so proud of all that you do here and all that you offer here in support of all the other pups and parents in need. So in addition to your written words, your caring contribution here is also your special tribute to Barkley, and all that he has meant to you.

Many (((hugs))) to you today and always, in loving memory of your sweet boy ~
Marianne (forever Barkis' and Peg's and Luna's mom)

Rusty's Mom
05-25-2009, 07:58 PM
Oh my, that brought tears to my eyes. You have years of memories that will, hopefully, help you through this difficult time. Barkley was so fortunate to have you, and I know you were to have him. You were such a good mom!

I'm sorry for your loss.

Blessings,

MJ

StarDeb55
05-25-2009, 08:06 PM
Thanks, MJ! I have just good memories, now. It will be 3 years this September, since Barkley crossed the bridge.

Debbie

Rusty's Mom
05-27-2009, 09:43 AM
Ah, I didn't see the date, so I didn't know how long Barkley had been gone. It's nice to have fond memories of our pups, isn't it!

MJ

Bailey's Mom
06-18-2009, 12:16 AM
Debbie- I just read Barkley's story after seeing his picture. Before Palmer we had a PomePoo, Peaches. We had to make the decision to put her down. She was 17+ years old and had lost much of her sight and had started having seizures. I too held her in my arms. It was so very hard to choose to end her life, but she was no longer enjoying life. My husband and I stayed with her until the vet (then) finally got the medicine injected into a vein. It remains as one of the hardest things I have ever had to go through. I wish their lives could last longer.

Barkley looks so cute in his pictures. I admire what you did and how you handled it.

Thanks for sharing.

-Susan

StarDeb55
06-18-2009, 01:57 AM
Thank you for you kind words, Susan! Even though it's been nearly 3 years, I still miss him each & very day.

Debbie

muskyhusky
08-10-2009, 10:07 PM
Oh that is so sad and not sad at the same time, the older I get the more these stories effect me...

mytil
09-24-2009, 07:17 AM
As you are coming up to the date Barkley passed on, I wanted to send you this special message to you today along with my ((((hugs))))

Do not grieve that I have gone
Beyond the reaches of your smiles.
Take comfort in the life we have shared,
We're only parted for a while.

Don't let sorrow steal your joy,
Live every day that we're apart.
Remember that I'm never gone,
I'll always be there in your heart.

Terry

Harley PoMMom
09-24-2009, 10:57 PM
Debbie,

I have read your tribute to Barkley many, many times, and not one time without tears. I have wanted to post to his thread many times...but the words that formed in my heart just seemed to escape me, and even now I am finding it hard to let you know how I feel.

I realize how difficult it must of been to write that beautiful tribute for Barkley, and I really appreciate that you shared your story with us. He was a very handsome and adorable "guard dog."

RIP Barkley

Love and Hugs.
Lori

StarDeb55
09-24-2009, 11:03 PM
Lori, thank you so much for your kind words, they mean a lot to me. I have read what I wrote several times lately, including tonight, & my tears start to fall to this day.

Debbie

Barney's Mom
09-24-2009, 11:36 PM
Hi Deb, Barkley's story truly touched me. He sounds like an awesome dog that I wish I could have been able to "meet". I think the hardest thing in life I have ever encountered is saying goodbye for now. Just wanted you to know that we are here with you and for you.
Hugs,
Cheryl

Dollydog
09-25-2009, 08:30 AM
(((HUGS))) from me too,
Jo-Ann

Roxee's Dad
09-25-2009, 09:19 AM
Keeping you and Barkley in my thoughts and in my heart today.

labblab
09-25-2009, 10:32 AM
Keeping you and Barkley in my thoughts and in my heart today.
Me too...:o :o :o

Marianne

gpgscott
09-25-2009, 05:39 PM
Debbie,

I am here with the others in honor of your Barkely.

Scott

StarDeb55
09-25-2009, 09:47 PM
Thanks to all of you for posting. Your kind words have helped me to keep Barkley's memory alive on the anniversary of this most fateful day for both of us.

Debbie

frijole
09-25-2009, 10:39 PM
RIP Barkley.

BestBuddy
09-26-2009, 12:30 AM
Deb,

Barkley was obviously a very special dog and your love shows through in your posts. I'm sure there is still pain but hopefully you also have all those good memories to remember him by too.

Jenny

StarDeb55
09-22-2010, 10:29 PM
My dearest Barky man, it’s been 4 years since you crossed the bridge, but in some ways it feels like it was yesterday. I know that you & Mom have hooked up, & are taking care of each other. Down here, Harley & I soldier on. Believe it or not, your little brother is now 15 years old & another Cushbaby. I guess he’s with the right owner since you & I went through Cushing’s University together. I have many wonderful memories of our years together which help me to never, ever forget you. Dear boy, please know that I miss you every day, & you will forever hold a special place in my heart. Until we meet, again!

Your forever Mom,
Debbie

Roxee's Dad
09-22-2010, 11:01 PM
Dear Debbie,

I have only had the privilege of knowing Barkley through your wonderful post and memories. My heart aches and hurts for you. Lighting a special candle for your special boy.

((((HUGS))))

Rest in Peace Sweet Barkley Boy.

Casey's Mom
09-23-2010, 08:21 AM
Deb I looked at his photos and he has the sweetest face. I just read his story at the beginning of your post - the tears are flowing now. You were a wonderful mom to him and I am glad that the memories now are all good ones. I believe this gives hope to the people that have suffered a loss recently.

Love and many hugs,

apollo6
09-23-2010, 03:28 PM
Never meet your sweetheart. But he must have been an angel.

mytil
09-23-2010, 07:00 PM
((((((hugs))))) Debbie!!

T.

frijole
09-23-2010, 07:39 PM
Never easy Deb... but no doubt you were a wonderful mom to a really cool dog. Hang in there.

Bailey's Mom
09-24-2010, 02:48 AM
Debbie-

One BIG hug to you as you mark Barkley's passing. It's been 7 weeks since Palmer passed and I still have tears flowing daily.

Barkley is one of the cutest doggies I have seen. His story is a wonderful, heart warming one. You were and are a great mom..........how unfortunate, yet maybe it was meant to be, that you are dealing with Cushings' again. Perhaps getting a brother or sister for Harley would be something to consider now.

Thank you for sharing and for all of your support for me. My thoughts are with you.

-Susan

StarDeb55
09-24-2010, 05:45 AM
Thanks, Susan! Actually, Harley does have a brother, Chewbacca. Chewbacca came home from breed rescue about 3 months before Barkley crossed. I knew the time was coming, & decided I wanted to have another pup in the house ahead of time. I thought that if I waited until Harley was alone, I might decide not to get another pup, but I didn't want Harley to be by himself.

Debbie

bkdice
09-24-2010, 01:40 PM
Debbie - What you and Barkley learned together, gave me the precious gift of time with my Niko. I am eternally grateful to you both. Such amazing things come out of such true bonds. Sending you warm thoughts of your boy during another milestone.

Franklin'sMum
09-25-2010, 02:04 AM
Debbie,

Thinking of you, and sending huge (((hugs)))

With love,
Jane, Franklin and Bailey xxx

labblab
09-25-2010, 09:29 AM
Dear Debbie,

Thinking of you, especially, today. And sending many hugs. I'll bet our two Barky Boys are raisin' some heck together up there in heaven!! :o ;)

May your heart be filled with Barkley's sweet spirit, today and everyday.
Marianne (forever Barkis' and Peg's and Luna's Mom)

sunimist
09-25-2010, 11:35 AM
Thinking of you and Barkley today Debbie.

Shelba and Suni~~

mypuppy
09-25-2010, 09:18 PM
So sad Debbie, I cant even imagine.

Tight hugs.

Xo Jeanette

acushdogsmom
09-25-2010, 09:21 PM
Lighting a candle for Barkley tonight. What a handsome boy he was, and how lucky he was to have had you, Debbie, for his Mom.

(((hugs)))

Harley PoMMom
09-25-2010, 09:40 PM
Thinking of you and sending hugs.

Love and hugs,
Lori

StarDeb55
09-26-2010, 06:57 PM
Thanks, everyone, for helping to remember Barkley this year!\\

Debbie

apollo6
09-30-2010, 10:32 PM
May he be watching over you.

StarDeb55
09-01-2011, 10:48 PM
Dearest Barkley, I know my message is a little early this year, but I've been thinking about you a lot lately. It's hard for me to think that it's been 5 years since you left. I think about the wonderful memories we share frequently, so I thought I would pass on another one for everyone to share. You were having a round of chemo one afternoon, & I was hanging out, waiting for you. It was getting pretty late, so I slipped next door to the derm clinic to say a quick hi, to Dr. Lewis. He was in with his last patient, was taking awhile, so I just told the girls to tell him that I said hello as I needed to get back to oncology as I'm sure you were ready to go, & they were looking for me. Yep, oncology was wondering where I had disappeared to. As I was waiting for them to bring you up from treatment, Dr. Lewis came down the hall, stopped to talk for a couple of minutes. Here you come out of one of the treatment room doors. Dr. Lewis bent down to give you a pat & scratch on the ears. You saw Dr. L, made a very wide circle all the way around him to get to me. Dr. Lewis, the vet techs, me, & everyone else who saw this just about died laughing. I told Dr. L, "I think he is very ready to go home & he absolutely wants nothing else to do with anyone in a white coat today." Dr. Lewis still laughs about this incident to this day when I remind him periodically.

I know that you, Harley, & Mom are taking care of each other. Please send your collective good vibes down to me, Chewy, & Obi. Know that you are deeply missed, & alway will be.

Your Mom,
Debbie

Bailey's Mom
09-03-2011, 06:43 PM
Debbie-
That is a nice post. I hope there are many, many more happy memories than there are oncology memories. They always leave a huge hole.
-Susan

marie adams
09-08-2011, 11:27 AM
Hi Debbie,

That is a good story to tell and made me chuckle--Thanks!!!:) I am sure Maddie has checked in with Barkley even though they never met, but they all know each other over the Rainbow Bridge. :D

labblab
09-25-2011, 03:10 PM
Dear Debbie,

Thinking of you and dear Barkley on this bittersweet day. Although you will never stop missing him, I hope the sweet memories far outweigh all the others.

Sending warm hugs, always in loving honor of your special boy.
Marianne

StarDeb55
09-26-2011, 07:03 PM
Thanks, Marianne!

Debbie

Cyn719
09-26-2011, 08:21 PM
Deb sorry I am a day late - love and prayers to you in memory of your beloved Barkley -

Roxee's Dad
09-26-2011, 10:21 PM
Special thoughts and (((HUGS))) for your beloved Barkley.

StarDeb55
09-24-2012, 08:31 PM
6 years my dearest Barkley, in a lot of way it's difficult for me to believe that you have been gone that long. I think about you almost every day, & still miss you. You have plenty of company, now, that Chewy has joined you, Harley, & Mom. I hope all of you are having a grand time. Please keep watch on me & Obi. I know that I will eventually see all of you, again. Please tell Chewy that I am so sorry.

Your Mom,
Debbie

mytil
09-25-2012, 07:02 AM
Big (((hugs))) coming your way Debbie.

T.

labblab
09-25-2012, 07:20 AM
The years roll by, sometimes in the blink of an eye. But our love is constant and our bonds are never broken. I post today in honor of your love for Barkley, Deb, and all those who remain so dear to you.

Sending my hugs to you and Obi,
Marianne

addy
09-25-2012, 10:25 PM
So much love and so many hugs coming your way.

Kisses and belly rubs for Obi

apollo6
09-30-2012, 10:16 PM
Comfort and love coming your way.
HUgs Sonja and Angel Apollo

StarDeb55
09-11-2014, 07:46 PM
My dearest Barkley, I missed last year, & am so very sorry. This was during the time that Chewy was declining, & in poor health.

Anyway, it's very difficult for me to believe that it has been 8 long years since you crossed the bridge. I miss you & Harley every single day. I have so many terrific memories that I could recount here, but would be typing all night. The one memory that still stands in the forefront is how you would bark & bark at anyone who came in the house. Mom & I would try our best to get you to zip it, but with little success. The first time Patsy, Mom's youngest sister came to visit, you started in with your usual "rant" about a stranger in the house. Mom & I tried our best to simply ignore you. Patsy, the retired school teacher, couldn't take it, whipped out her misbehaving students voice on you. Well, you zipped it in world record time. Mom & I just looked at each other, basically stunned, & then, both of us just burst out in laughter.

I do think about you every single day. I hope that you, Mom, Harley, & Chewy are taking care of each other, & having a great time.

Your Mom,
Debbie

Harley PoMMom
09-11-2014, 08:01 PM
Sending loving hugs to you, Debbie.

addy
09-16-2014, 08:19 PM
hugs Debbie- I hope everything is ok