Vetoryl / Cushings Disease - Dear Penny has passed

[labblab]

Thank you all......

Today vet is saying maybe the colitis is making her so sick.....yes maybe because her stool is just liquid.......or yes tumor is making her sick.....but she said have to treat the colitis to see if he gets better...process do elimination. Ok but if she's eating just a bit how do I give her the Flagyl on an empty stomach? Can't give SE and Flagyl right. She likes the SE......what do I do can't ask vet thet won't advise on SE........:confused:
Hey Cindy, I'll let others comment on this, too. But I think you can probably give both the slippery elm and the Flagyl, but just make sure that the slippery elm is two hours apart from the Flagyl or any of the other meds. Maybe the slippery elm will help her feel well enough to want to eat a little more. Good luck!

Marianne

[frijole]

Cindy - I would never tell you to give your dog something that could hurt her... and I also had wonderful results with SEB... and I'm sure your vet just never heard of it or tried it so is being cautious... but that said I agree... I would give it anyway and I would give it two hours from the other drugs just to be safe. Sending more love, Kim

[Cyn719]

Kim. I have already used SE a bunch of times.....she loves it.....it is great.....but can I give SE and Flagyl?? I know two hrs apart but I meant do I have to chose one or the other?

She ate alittle chicken earlier and just ate two burgers. .......think her tummy also feels full from the tumor. Hope that's enough food to give the Flagyl???

[frijole]

I have zero experience with Flagyl! I googled and read on a human forum and they were talking about how they hated taking it and how it makes them sick... there was one person that appears to have taken both Flagyl and SEB... I'll let you read it.

http://www.drugtalk.com/flagyl/drugthread.php/t-245840.html

I can't remember if you have tried either reducing the amount of Flagyl or not giving it and what happened. Lord I hope someone here checks in that has used it.

Hugs, Kim

[Cyn719]

Kim. Thank you!! I I'll read it. I feel she needs the Flagyl cause her stool I like water:eek:.....I am giving her half dose till she eats more for now...

Xoxo

[frijole]

Gotchya... no doubt she needs something to help her. I remember you tried pumpkin and she didn't like it (if I recall)... do you have a syringe like thing you could fill up and shoot into her mouth? I used that for some meds for Annie (because she wouldn't eat any pills) and it really was easier. I got them (plastic devices) from my vet for free. Pumpkin and slippery elm both really helped Annie... can only share what has worked for me.. sorry.

Praying for an overnight miracle! Kim

[labblab]

Hi Cindy,

As we talked about earlier, I've used Flagyl for years with my dogs with no problems at all. It always really helped them. But they did not have the same liver issues as are facing Penny. Are you back to using the Flagyl from your vet as opposed to that you got from Diamondback? Since Penny successfully took your vet's version in the past without any problems, that's what I would want to be using again now. The more variables you can control, the better. So I'd want to go back to the "original" Flagyl if you can.

Marianne

[Bailey's Mom]

Hi Cindy-
I'm here, holding hands, giving hugs......and I am with you.

I agree with Sas's wise words.

-Susan

[addy]

Cindy, the dogs that come to my IBD forum are usually very sick, vomiting and diarhreea. They have been scoped and diagnosed with inflammatory bowel disease. They are usually on prednisone and a variety of antibiotics. If flagyl does not work for them, they use tylan. Some of the dogs are on 2-3 antibiotics plus a zantac or pepcid type drug as well as carafate. Most of them dont want to eat and are sick to their stomach too until the IBD gets under control, which can take some time. Colitis is a catch all phrase a lot of vets use before a dog is actuallty diagnosed properly.

With the liver tumor Penny has, it is hard to know what is happening. But I did want you to know that dogs without tumors and IBD are sometimes pretty sick too.

Flagyl has never bothered Zoe's tummy as she always gets it with food but it does bother some of the pups tummies on the IBD forum so they get carafate and zantac or pepcid or some anti nausea drug.

It seems like you should be able to give the SEB, wait two hours and then if you could only get Penny to eat anything with the flagyl, even baby food?

When she was on the flagyl before did it make her sick?

[Altira]

You know Cindy I kept daily notes on Mira right up to the day I let her go. Like twenty times a day I'd make note of something she did, was doing, ate, what pills I gave when, treats I gave her, her breathing, crying, poop..... 16 pages covering her last 22 days. I don't know if it will help or not. It's a lot to go thru.

In glancing thru it just now I can tell you she was in a lot of pain. She could hardly stand for days. I was shocked at how fast that came on and how bad it was. She could barely stand to get a drink. We put her on pred and that ALL went away. But she started panting a lot. The pain had been obvious before giving prednisone. You have not mention pain in some time. So maybe what you are seeing now is not her liver but something else?

One other thing I could mention now is in those last seven days or so I don't recall seeing her sleep much at all. She was always just laying there staring at nothing. Is Penny sleeping at all? Really sleeping?

It's only a guess on my part. But I'm thinking the liver is not the current problem. I think the ladies here are pointing you the right way. You really need to stop that watery poop. As others have also mentioned I've never found Fragyl to be a problem. The pill form.

[Squirt's Mom]

Hi Cindy,

I have not had internet connection for a few days and am so sorry to come back on to read how poorly our sweet Penny Poo is doing. :(

Sas, in her oh so gentle manner, said it best of all - these days are about quality of life for you and for Penny. Seeing these days so full of misery for you both is not what any of us want.

All I can tell you is what I think I would do in your shoes - and that is to stop all meds except the SEB. If her stools improve and her appetite remains good, then add ONE med back, giving it a good length of time to see how it affects her. If she gets sicker, stop the second med and don't go back to it. Keep on with the SEB, tho.

Penny isn't going to be cured, that is the hard fact here. So the goal is to make her as comfortable and happy as possible for as long as possible. If the meds are making her feel worse instead of better, then they are not worth the effort to give them or the expense to buy them, and certainly not worth taking what joy she might find in her remaining days away from her. But to determine which one or ones are making her so sick would take time - time to add one med at a time and see how it affects her. With so many given at once, it will be almost impossible to know which one is upsetting her so - if it is the meds and not the cancer. :(

I so wish we could tell you, "Cindy, do *this* and things will get better" but *this* doesn't exist unfortunately. It is all on you, honey - how you want her final days to be; what quality you want her to have during those days; what memories you want to hold in your heart for the remainder of your days.

Tears have fallen the whole time I write...in your shoes, all these well-meaning words would have no value; I would want to fight with everything I had to keep her with me regardless. I am that selfish. No one but you can fill your shoes, honey, no one but you can make these decisions. However, there are 100's of shoes right beside yours - every single step, stumble, fall - we are there. We cannot wear your shoes, but we can walk in our own, surrounding you and Penny all the way, and beyond.

Many hugs,
Leslie and the gang

[nibbles-mommy]

Still praying for you and Penny.

[Altira]

Me too! Praying and crying with you and hugging you and Penny......

[Spiceysmum]

Cindy,

So sorry to hear that Penny is poorly. Thinking of you both.

Linda x

[Casey's Mom]

Cindy - I just want you to know I am thinking of you and Penny always. Sending warm thoughts and loving prayers for you and Penny.

Love and many hugs,

[Squirt's Mom]

You and Penny are on my mind. Sending hugs, healing white light, and prayers your way.
Leslie and the gang

[Cyn719]

It was so nice to come on and see all the posts from all of the Angels on this forum - Im crying just reading them but its warm tears of happiness for all the love and support I have from all of you - I am still dealing with the loss of my cousin which is soooo hard and this on top of it is killing me ==== I know I will know when the time is right ---

Update - she is eating again - walking is bad - she still eats drinks poops pees no accidents in the house and rolls on her back in the grass kicking her feet in the air --- so she is not ready yet ---- but she is losing weight fast - I think I may of said she was 73 lbs now 68 lbs - lost that in about 5 plus weeks - from the end of her rib cage to her tail she is all sunken in - very thin there - maybe cancer maybe fast grown benign tumor - whatever it is it is killing her --- he stool is not good - Flagyl is given twice a day but it was small doses now shes on the regular dose - we think the Amentadine was making her vomit - but she needs it but we stopped it for now - one other weird thing her tail - its been a straight tail which curled up at the end now it come from her body and curves up then down and straight at the end - could it be nerve damage or the arthritis - just started last week -----
Again thank you all for your love and support - I pray for all of you and all you furbabies each and everynight as I pray for Penny ----

Hugs xoxoxoxoxo

[nibbles-mommy]

i'm really glad to hear penny's still very much here. it's those little things like the rolling on her back that keeps us going. nibbles was also very very thin and lost almost half his body weight from cushings and diabetes diagnosis. he was also a tough eater. i started giving him wellness canned and he liked it alot. it's high in calories too. some varieties ahve at least 585 calories per can. it upset me so to see him wasting away.

i hope she continues to be very present and comfortable.

you both stay in my prayers.

[Altira]

Cindy... I'm so glad you are still having good times with Penny and really glad the vomiting has stopped. That's a relief! But most of all thank you for the kicking her feet in the air thing. That really gives us good picture of Penny and I'm sure this will bring lots of smiles to the Angels faces. We know how special those moments are and I sure do love hearing those too.

Concerning her tail... Kira's tail is ratty looking and has kinked at the end. It never used to be that way. I thought maybe she injuired it sometime and I didn't know it. But now that you mention Penny's being odd too, I'm thinking your right, that it's arthritis or something like that. Our poor babies. All these sad things happen when they get old.

[nibbles-mommy]

weird about the tail, my casey had breast cancer and more than likely traveled to her lungs causing congestion and her passing. we used to comment that her tail looked "broken" because of the way it would hang. maybe it's just a discomfort thing.

[Altira]

The vet said Kira had "tail pain" and asked if she wagged her tail. She does now and then. I should have asked why she thought she had tail pain and where. Kira's tail has been kinked for at least two years. She's a few months younger then Penny.

[Squirt's Mom]

Hi Cindy,

So good to hear from you and to hear that Penny is doing alright!

The tail position might be a reaction to, or signal of, pain or discomfort. I saw a pretty good chart on Facebook a trainer posted about tail positions and the meanings; if I can find it again, I will share it here.

I hope you are feeling some better yourself, sweetie. Your health has been concerning me as well. Please take care of you, 'k?

Hugs,
Leslie and the gang

[Jenny & Judi in MN]

Update - she is eating again - walking is bad - she still eats drinks poops pees no accidents in the house and rolls on her back in the grass kicking her feet in the air --- so she is not ready yet ---- but she is losing weight fast - I think I may of said she was 73 lbs now 68 lbs - lost that in about 5 plus weeks - from the end of her rib cage to her tail she is all sunken in - very thin there - maybe cancer maybe fast grown benign tumor - whatever it is it is killing her --- he stool is not good - Flagyl is given twice a day but it was small doses now shes on the regular dose - we think the Amentadine was making her vomit - but she needs it but we stopped it for now - one other weird thing her tail - its been a straight tail which curled up at the end now it come from her body and curves up then down and straight at the end - could it be nerve damage or the arthritis - just started last week -----
Again thank you all for your love and support - I pray for all of you and all you furbabies each and everynight as I pray for Penny ----

Hugs xoxoxoxoxo
I'm glad Penny got to enjoy some sunshine yesterday. Someone on the diabetes forum had a weird tail issue. it might have been Natalie. Let me go look

here is a link to Natalie's post about Jack's tail. He needed pain meds http://www.k9diabetes.com/forum/showpost.php?p=69814&postcount=543

[Cyn719]

When our babies are sick things change often - she really doesnt want to eat - today nothing till tonight - she had a small bowl of chicken - and seemed full - tumor may be taken up alot of her stomach area- tummy area and hind legs are thinning out more and more - she is looking like a dog with cancer - very hard to stand and walk - but at the door for treats and barking at people - I know it wont be that long but she will let me know when......

[frijole]

Cindy, My heart goes out to you. Although our circumstances are different I share with you that I thought Annie was near death due to her frailness on so many occasions but she kept on ticking. So just do what you are doing and enjoy every single minute. She could surprise you and have more days than you suspect. Regardless of the number, may they all be filled with sunshine, rolling on her back in the yard, barking at squirrels, and all of the wonderful little things that you can put in your memory bank to cherish forever. Bless you girl. Kim

[Altira]

You will do the right thing Cindy. Keep sharing your thoughts. We are here. We all want to help and be with you. We love you and hurt with you and Penny. You're doing great. xxoo :o

[Rebelsmom]

Cindy, wanted you to know you and Penny are in my thoughts and prayers everyday. Call me anytime you need to.

Melissa

[Cyn719]

As of now we think we may have to let her go by Sat - I want my regular vet to do it and she is off tomorrow and in Sat and then again on Monday----not ready today...just cant do it....even though my regular vet is the one who screwed up with the meds for Cushings Penny has been going there 12 -1/2 years and she will be the most comfortable there. She is eating small handfuls on chicken and a few treats --- standing is almost imposible at times -- she just makes it to pee and poop and she has no balance so she steps in it all the time - we have cement out side and she must of layed down and cut open her leg cause she just falls hard - her toe nail bleeds cause its worn out from draging her leg - and she is so fragile - my son even said today Mom we need to do something - this is awful - and he thinks he wasnts her ashes - is that really expensive?? I know I will do it regardless......Please keep my girl in your prayers.....I could use some also to get through this ---- not fair I just loss Steven and now this....:(

Love and hugs always
xoxoxo

[Squirt's Mom]

My heart is breaking...

In tears, with much love, strong shoulders and gentle arms we will be with you all.

[nibbles-mommy]

I really feel for you, You'll be in my prayers.

Nibbles' ashes were around $150 we are in PA. came in a nice mahogany box with a key.

[Bailey's Mom]

Hi-
I did not want Palmer's ashes. I do know there are these little headstones you can get if you want to mark a spot where her ashes are buried-if they are. There are some really nice ones and I've seen pictures of people who made gardens out of the area.

I know your pain. I am very sorry. Please hug Penny tightly from us. I agree with you about going to the familiar vet. Personally, I like to hold my doggie and I don't remove the collar until all is done. Sometimes we don't think of these things when we are so stressed.

It's a very rough time for you. Do take care of yourself.

Love,
Susan

[frijole]

Hi Cindy,

I'm reaching out across the miles and sending you the biggest bear hug I can. Take photos, videos, give her hugs, give her whatever treats she will enjoy but most of all continue to love her and thank her for all the wonderful memories she has given you and yours. It will make you feel better. Know we are here. We love you and share your pain. Sending strength. Kim

[Harley PoMMom]

Oh Cindy,

I am so sorry to hear this and will definitely be keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers. Sending my love and huge hugs, we are all here for you and truly understand.

Love and more hugs,
Lori

[jmac]

Cindy,

I am so sorry. I am crying with you. It is so hard. I get really emotional every time I even think about that time coming with Hannah because I know she is old and never know how much time she has left.

I got my Bailey's ashes. I don't remember how much it was, but I knew I needed to have him. I don't think it was too horribly expensive. I also cut off a large chunk of his hair and put a rubber band around it. I still have it.

I think it is important for Penny and you to be where she is comfortable. As we've said, you'll know when it's time, and even though it is so horribly hard for you, you know you're helping her and easing her pain and struggle. You have been wonderful to her and she knows that.

You and Penny are in my thoughts and prayers.

Julie & Hannah

[Altira]

You mention bleeding and dragging herself and my heart sinks. I hope I'm as brave and sencable as you when Kira is doing the same. I hope so much that you will be around then. Please don't leave us when she's gone. Please come back and talk to us. Tell Penny Mira and all the wonderful doggies will be there to great her and they will all run free together. I can only imagine how painful it must be to see her like this. She was a very lucky dog to have you as her mom. No one could have loved her more.

God bless you and be merciful upon you, Penny and your family.

I wanted my regular vet to do it too. He suggested I call one of these people who will come to your house. In the end I found that I needed to do it when I was ready.

You are right here in my pocket any time. 8:::

[SasAndYunah]

Dearest Cindy,

it's not that long ago when you, and so many others, were here for me when I was in the same place with Yunah as you are right now with Penny...I still can not only remember what that meant to me, I can still actually feel what it felt like... Now it's my turn to hold and carry you and Penny in these days to come and the weeks and months that will follow.

Holding and carrying you and Penny, in my mind and heart,

Saskia and Mhina (and with angel Yunah peeking over my shoulder).

[addy]

When we lose one of our own, we all grieve together and Penny is one of our own. Dearest Cindy, you have been brave for so long, you just need to be brave a bit longer, It is not fair to lose Penny after losing Steven and I understand your feelings.

Our Penny, our Cindy, you are family and we love you and care about you and in this time of twilight, we will not leave you and forever Penny will be the bluebird in the sky, the sun beam on our faces, the gentle breeze drifting through our hair.

She will never be forgotten and will continue to be cherished, remembered and love.

You will do the right thing for Penny. You always have had the courage to what is right for her.

[Squirt's Mom]

Dearest, sweetest Cindy,

My mind and heart has been reliving our last days with our Ruby. She had gotten so weak she couldn't walk. We carried her everywhere. We knew the time had come but couldn't get to the vet due to the holidays so we also had to wait.

As hard as that was on all of us, we made those last days all about her. Everyone who loved her came to visit her; folks who couldn't come talked to her via the phone (and yes, she recognized those voices by wagging the tip of her tail); we fed her all her favorite foods - anything she wanted and would eat, even stuff that was not at all good for her, she got it all, all hand-fed; the other babies spent all the time with her they wanted as long a they weren't too rambunctious. She was never alone; someone was always laying on the floor with her or talking to her. She loved being brushed so we brushed her coat until it shone.

I will never forget the look in her eyes those last days. There was such love, such contentment, such a longing....but above all there was such gratitude in those eyes. I believe Rube understood what was to come, why she was getting all this attention, and that she approved - she was ready. Yet there was a degree of sadness in those eyes as well - not for herself, but for all of us who were hurting so at the knowledge we would soon have to say goodbye. In return, Rube told us over and over how very much she loved us.

In a strange way, having to wait on the vet to open was a blessing for us all. It gave us time to say goodbye in all it's fullness. I hope you and your family will find the same is true in time.

My tears haven't stopped; my heart still aches; but shining through it all is the hope you find peace and acceptance in these last days with your precious Penny Poo.

Much love and many hugs,
Leslie and the gang

[lauraperla]

Dear Cindy,
My heart is aching for you, I pray the courage and strength you have shown so much will carry you and Penny through your final journey together.
Do try and remember to keep talking to her throughout especially in the final moments. I looked out one of our girl's favourite blankets to cosy round her at the end.
Much love to you all xx

[Casey's Mom]

Hello Dear Cindy, I am here for you honey and crying right beside you.

This was actually the very hardest time for me knowing that I was going to have to put Casey to sleep. Remember dogs do not show pain - to do so in the wild means certain death so their instinct covers it up. Because we love them so we do it for them so they do not have to suffer.

I have Casey's ashes and some of her hair and collar in a lovely wooden box with a picture of her smiling in my arms. It is in my office at home and I look at her photo on my desk and its like she is still with me. I feel her presence and know she is at peace.

Love, peace and strength to you Cindy, hugs to our Penny.

[nibbles-mommy]

As of now we think we may have to let her go by Sat - I want my regular vet to do it and she is off tomorrow and in Sat and then again on Monday----not ready today...just cant do it....

Cindy,

You and Penny have been in my thoughts. I hope you are doing ok.

It was a Thursday morning when I looked at Nibbles and knew it was enough. I went ahead and called the vet, could barely talk and say what the appointment was for. I said I wanted his regular vet, but he wasn't in until a week and a half later or that night. I wasn't ready for it to be that night, and I knew I couldn't wait that long, becuase I would lose the courage to do it and it wasn't fair for Nibbles to drag himself around and not being able to pee on his own or see anything, or eat the things he loved. I made the appointment for Friday night with another girl vet that had taken care of my Casey a few times.

We took him and I held him the whole time and told him to go see Casey, and he could run free again, and see again, and be strong. I stayed with him alone for a little while after and just held him. It was very peaceful. I brought his comforter that he slept on and placed ot on the floor, I wanted him to be as comfortable as possible, I didn't want him on the table. We all sat around him on the floor.

The vet was so nice and compassionate, the receptionists and vet techs knew Nibbles, but she had never met him. As I was leaving, I turned to look just once more and the vet was leaning against the door crying. I was very glad I chose to go to her.

Enjoy all of your time with Penny, make every moment special for the 2 of you and remember forever. I'm crying so hard right now and feel so very, very sad for you. I will keep praying for your family.

[Roxee's Dad]

Dear Cindy,
I am so sorry that you have to make that selfless decision, I will be keeping you and Penny very close to my heart.

[lulusmom]

Cindy,

Your strength through all of Penny's ups and downs are an inspiration for us all. I won't pretend to know the sorrow you have felt and continue to feel with the loss of your beloved Steven and having to say goodbye to Penny. I hope that I can be half as strong as you when the time comes for me to make one of life's most difficult decisions.

My heart is with you, sweetie, as are my thoughts and prayers.

Holding you and your entire family in my heart.

((((Huge Loving and Consoling Hugs))))
Glynda

[Cyn719]

Thank you my Angels.....having all of you helps with this whole process and yes only a few weeks after losing Steven it is very hard to go through this with Penny...I wake up every morning and its like a dream he is gone....every childhood memory races through my head...he was such a wonderful person....you always had lots of laughs with him....I am crying now just typing about him....my heart is broken.....I can only imagine what his wife is going through....no kids but has two furbabies that her and Steven love so so much....they look for him every day and lay in the sunroom where his hospital bed was....so sad...
Its going to be up and down for a few days ... weeks with my girl....she is such a fighter....she loves life so much.....today she had some steak and canned food for breakfast and two meatballs - yup she is Italian -:D 2 tab of canned food and half cup kibble and ate it all - now tomorrow she may not eat????? just taking it day by day until we know shes ready........

Hugs to all and again thank you for all your thoughts love and concern - It means alot to me and Penny:)

xoxoxoxoxoxo

[labblab]

Cindy, I am here, too. My heart is with you and with our sweet Penny. Both of you are loved and treasured here, and always will be. Please tell Penny she is such a brave girl, such a good girl. I am beyond sorry that this time has come. I send you my prayers and my hugs of strength.

Marianne

[Altira]

Pisses me off... I don't always get email alerts when something has been posted. :mad:

Anyway.... It sounds like Saturday has been put on the shelf. Good! If she's enjoying all these good things to eat... I say keep them coming. If she can walk on her front legs you could wrap a towel under her belly and help her with the rear end. One day at a time good idea. You can do it. There is no rush.

Neeka and Mira's breeder gave her dog pizza for her 14th birthday! How about some ice cream? Bet that would make her eyes big! Cool her off too.

[apollo6]

dear Cindy and beautiful Penny
The tears are flowing as I am writing. you both gave me and
Apollo love and support many times. Now it is my turn to infold you in love . Penny knows you love her. penny will let you know. One day at a time,realish each moment with her. I am going through the same with Apollo. Give her what ever she wants .You fought bravely
You did your best and that is all we can do. We love you both so much.
Hugs Apollo and Sonja

[marie adams]

Hi There Cindy,

I did the same thing with Maddie to put a towel under her to help with her hind legs. It was sad to do, but she always at the end wanted to go out side to take care of business. Janis thanks for that idea--I forgot about that.

My heart aches with you because I know exactly what you are going through. I didn't want to have to make that decision--I wanted God to make it, but he thought differently so we as a family made the decision as to when. Of course Maddie also had a say.

(((((HUGS))))) Take care wonderful person you are....:)

[Bailey's Mom]

Hi Cindy-

Just checking in on you and Penny. I'm glad she is still enjoying some things in life. I know that sometimes, when people and fur babies are so sick, they lose their appetite. I don't think you should be alarmed if Penny doesn't eat on any given day. They just don't have the appetite.

Take care of yourself, along with Penny.
((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))

[Altira]

That could be right. Just because she doesn't eat something might mean she's full right now. Might be best not to feed her too much at once. Oh hell you know that... I'm checking my email box often today. This was the day I think you said the vet was available, so I'm very concerned. I hope your able to spend lots of time with her. I hope your beside her right now.

I didn't want any of our dogs ashes, I take the cheepest way out, but I did keep a little bit of fur from a couple of them. (Mira's last peanut butter jar 8::::) I have a whole fist full of puppy teeth too.

[mypuppy]

strength, love, prayers, tight hugs for you and Penny girl.

Much love,

Jeanette and Princess

[Cyn719]

Hi....thank you all.....wow you all are wonderful:)

Penny ate ok today....she mostly wants meatballs....loves them....so does anyone have a doggie meatball recipe??? Basically laid down all day....walking gets worse each day?? Janis you mentioned pred.....vet never did?? I should ask???

Xoxoxo

[nibbles-mommy]

Really glad Penny's eating. Prednisone may make her feel a little better and also eat better too. May give her some spunk back.

Still praying for you guys.

[Altira]

YES YES YES! I would give it to her right now. Right now. If you were considering letting her go today. What is it going to hurt to try? But you'll have to wait until Monday now? Can you call another 24 hour vet and ask them. I'd send you what I have if I could get it there fast enough!

[nibbles-mommy]

it may also reduce inflamation and help her walk better. vet said he was thinking about giving it to nibbles when i brought him in for the leg weakness, but said no because of the diabetes and because i took him off the vetoryl 2 months prior and his higher cortisol should already be helping with the inflamation if any.

[Cyn719]

Sometimes her orthopedic or IMS is on Sunday's...I will check.....on line looking for doggie meatball recipe.....not sure what one is safe??

[Altira]

Meatballs!:p Meatballs for Penny. LOL Ok meatballs...

[Altira]

AMANTADINE is not really a pain releiver in itself. Not a substatue for pred. Meatballs might be though... :rolleyes:

[Cyn719]

Found a few recipes.....some use garlic and tomato pasted...thought dogs should not eat these? Anyone have suggestions? Found this one..

http://en.allexperts.com/q/Dog-Breeding-Whelping-3634/2011/3/Dog-Meatball-Recipe-pet.htm

[frijole]

I'd be concerned it would be hard to digest but what do I know?! haha

When Annie was refusing all foods Glynda sent me this recipe. It makes an enormous batch so you could just wing it and put in much smaller quantities if you want to test it. Anyway... my vet loved the ingredients and said it was very healthy. Do NOT put in too much molasses though given the issue with the runs... I did once and Annie let me know I messed up the recipe. ;):)

Anyway you could pick and choose ingredients. Annie would NOT eat them raw - but she scarfed them when I nuked them.

http://www.holisticdog.org/Nutrition/Satinballs/satinballs.html

[Kathy]

Cindy, I think your recipe for meatloaf/meatballs looks good. It is simple and doesn't include things that Penny might have issue with. I have been feeling Maggie a special diet for her digestive system, and I boil sweet potatoes and russets and then mash them. I use chicken broth from her boiled chicken to make them the right consistency. I include a little white rice as well. That is the base I use, and then I toss in ground beef and boiled chicken I would be sure to get the leanest ground beef and rinse it thoroughly to get rid of the fat. Maybe a little less tasty, but better for digestion. I hope it's a tasty delight for Penny. Kathy

[Cyn719]

Thank you Kathy.....so nice of you to share that recipe. Penny is soooo fussy but she did eat the meatballs I made today ...the recipe link I posted ......I will also try yours...

So funny Mike tested a meatball I made today.....he said it was good!!!:D:D

Oxox

[Cyn719]

Penny ate four meatballs today and a cup and a half of kibble.....she started the last few days drinking bowls of water:eek:.......she looks ok but can't get up from a laying down position.....and falls a lot to the left and funny that she does that cause it's her back right leg that has no use.....prob the left giving out cause she is putting all her weight on that one.....front legs aren't supporting her neither....so curious if it's arthritis.....muscle loss both or?? She'd be pretty good is she had some use of her legs......wonder if the tumor would cause this.....will be trying to get IMS tomorrow....any input??

Xoxo

[Altira]

Mira as you know, died from massive tumors in her liver. She was young and her rear legs and back were in prefect condition. However, about a month before we lost her she started limping. I had her leg checked out and they could find nothing wrong. Before long she couldn't walk her at all. Within two weeks she's holding up one rear leg and then the other. There was no way her legs could have gone bad in two weeks! The IMS doctor did nothing for this. Tramadol that's it! Tramadol did nothing!

The Cancer Specailist siad to give her prednisone. She said Mira was compensating for the pain she felt inside by standing oddly. One day is all it took and Mira was walking again! One or two days Cindy and you should know if the pred will work. If it doesn't, then you stop.

Your IMS may only give it to you if you request it!

It's imposible to say for sure why Penny can't walk. But does it really matter? If the problem can be fixed prednisoze can do it. It doesn't matter if it's her lameness or the cancer, pred will work for both.

I think that pred maybe hard on the liver. Maybe I lost Mira sooner becasue of that. Should I have just let her live out what time she had left all crippled and in pain? Or let her injoy her last days? She walked every last day she had. She never limped again! I can't bare to think what it would have been like for her if I hadn't given her pred.

Steven... I bet he had some powerful pain killers in the end. Maybe he died a few days sooner becasue of it? Would you rather he be in pain the whole time and stay a few days longer?

So yes, the tumors can be causing what you are seeing. But that doesn't mean it is. But as I say, does it matter which is causing it?

[Altira]

Our hearts are with you and Penny!

[Cyn719]

Just a moment to say thank you....she's hanging in there....eating okay today....steak chicken turkey.....some treats......cause she wasn't eating held back on Flagyl....poop is water.....can't stand well.. She gets up to go to the pen to go to the bathroom.....that's it.....sleeps a lot......

Again I know I need to make the right call....but the eating and barking at people makes it hard....I truly or the vet doesn't even know exactly why this is happening.....suggestions......the tumor....Addisions disease .....sever arthritis.....but whatever it is I don't think she can be cured.....she lost eight pounds.......very difficult .....

Xoxo

[lulusmom]

My Dear Cindy,

My heart goes out to you because I know how hard it is to know when it's time to set our babies free of suffering. Our love for our dogs knows no boundaries and it's so very difficult to not let our judgment be clouded by our need to keep them in our lives. At my age, I've had to make that decision way too many times and before I leave this world, I'll be confronted with it again and again.

All of my dogs are medically challenged and I'm trying to prepare myself as best I can to make the right decision when the time comes. I was given a copy of a newsletter published by the Latham Foundation entitled "Quality of Life Until the End of Life", which I have saved on my computer so that when I feel the time is near for any of my babies, I can refer to it for some guidance.

673

The Latham Foundation is an an amazing organization and rather than tell you about them, I'll let you read their "Our History" page on their site.

http://latham.org/about-the-foundation/our-history/

(((Huge Comforting Hugs)))
Glynda

[Altira]

Kira and Neeka sending Penny a husky heart....
Wishing her more happy moments and meatballs.
(((((WHOOF)))))
http://www.k9cushings.com/forum/picture.php?albumid=284&pictureid=3555

[Altira]

If you feel up to it below is a link to Mira's Thread ... her last few days...

http://www.k9cushings.com/forum/showthread.php?t=2651&page=7

I'll be honost with you. I'm horrible at this. When I desided it was time, I was ok with it. With her liver ready to ruture and her horrible caughing. But God I hated myself when I got home. The best I could do was hand off the leash and run out the door! On top of that she had walked into that place. All I could think was I let her go too soon! But with Mira, her illness was going to take her long before she was ready no matter what. It didn't matter, I still hated myself.

I think maybe most dogs who's time has come, won't be able to walk into the vets that last time. Not even stand. I carried my Sasha in myself. She was 15 1/2. How lucky I had been to have her so long.

Of course with Penny's rearend weakness, the not being able to walk is differant. She's gettting up to potty, barking happily at people and loving her meals. I wouldn't take that way from her no way. I'd keep spoiling her.

[Squirt's Mom]

Dear Cindy,

You, Penny, and the rest of your family stay on my mind and in my heart daily. Know you are not alone even in the darkest of moments, honey. There are 100's of folks who are holding you and Penny tight every moment.

Hugs,
Leslie and the gang

[Casey's Mom]

Love and huge hugs,

[Bailey's Mom]

In my opinion "We" always want someone else to tell us "It is time." Our first dog was a Pome-poo and her tail was bushy and went up and around. She got 10 minute energy spurts, one in the morning, one in the evening. Outside of the energy spurts her tail hung low. She was 17.25 years old.........a blessing I never would have imagined. She had lost much of her sight but other than that, she had no major illnesses. She started having seizures. The seizures completely wiped her out. It was then that we decided it was time. To keep her alive longer would be very selfish. She basically had two ten minute periods each day when she was "happy."

I think the article and comments by Glynda go far to help someone with that decision. I have now saved it for myself.

With Palmer, he was only 13. He was losing weight at an alarming rate and we were at the point of needing to hydrate him. That last morning my husband took him out to do his business. He had dropped 6 lbs in two weeks-from 18 to 12. My husband came back in carrying him and said to me, with tears in his eyes...... "How long are we going to keep this up? He is so weak." My last moments with Palmer at home were spent with him on my lap facing me....but only for an instant. He would not look me in the eyes. He wanted to turn and sit on my lap. The look in his eyes told me that we had made the right decision that morning.

My heart aches for you Cindy and for Penny. They are with us for such a little piece of time. It wrenches my heart and yet there I went, 6 months later, to start the process of finding my next puppy.

It is hard, so very hard. It is a heavy weight to bear. I am going to post another writing which was very helpful to me.

With great care,
Susan

[Cyn719]

Thanks Angels.....thanks for being here......means soooooo much...

yup so hard.....talked to orthopedic for half hr. tonight....said may have nerve damage in lower back....think he said that cause she's not whining...not groaning..but can't walk well....he said she may not feel her back area to much if it's numb from netve damage....she ate good today...not dog food. .... Had energy tonight.... Came to see me in the den and wanted her ears rubbed ...hasn't done that in a few weeks...he also thinks she may have some dementure ....by what itold him....also wondering if her teeth are an issue....that's what it was las time he didnt eat ....mmmmmm.....why didnt vet check when I took her in for sick visit??? Charged me though!!!! Now i noice the front of her mouth is sensitive....ugh.....tomorrows another day.....tired no sleep.....catch up more later today.....xoxo...

[Bailey's Mom]

" I am going to post another writing which was very helpful to me."

I am not able to find it now. I will keep trying to find it.

[Altira]

Oh dearest Cindy, that last post was a bit hard to disifer. Then again it says a lot. I lost 15 pounds when loosing Mira. I'd fall asleep then wake with a start, everytime she made the slightest sound.

You have my utter sympathy. Life just doesn't get harder then this.

I think the ortho is right, she doesn't have much feeling in the rear. Probably a blessing. And bless him for giving you his time. Did he not offer anything? Like what to expect now?

[jmac]

Cindy,

I just want you to know I am still thinking of you and Penny every day. I also think the QoL scale Glynda posted is incredibly useful, and plan to save it for me as well. I'm wishing you strength during this difficult time, and hope you and Penny just focus on enjoying your time together...

Julie & Hannah

[mypuppy]

Love and hugs from all of us here too.

We love you Penny girl!

xo

[Cyn719]

Thank you .....love you all...thank you for that article Glynda.....that was very good and I did read it a few times:)

I fixed my last post janis......thanks.....I posted way too late!:p

Penny didn't take Flagyl for a Day or so cause she didn't eat...stool is water again....ate today so she got a dose.pray she eats again to get another dose....drinking and peeing...no accidents in house...she sleeps a lot....still barking at people..... Letting her enjoy each day till we see she is not...and we will do whats right.....I do see what I think is dementure....won't stop pacing in the house....keeps wanting to go out...gave her tramadol at 11pm....she wouldn't stop pacing.....

Hugs to all and your furbabies are always in my prayers xoxo

[lulusmom]

Hi Cindy,

Unfortunately I don't believe Penny has dementia but rather is showing neurological signs, which is typical in end stage liver cancer. Excessive drinking & peeing, weight loss, loss of appetite, diarrhea, vomiting and aimless pacing are all symptoms. I'm not sure tramadol will help with the pacing. When a dog loses liver function, and I believe that is what is happening to Penny, toxins accumulate, primarily ammonia, from its inability to process protein, these toxins poison the brain. Have you noticed that Penny paces more after eating?

Please keep an eye on your girl for jaundice and an enlarging belly. If you see either, please call your vet asap.

My thoughts and prayers remain with you both.

Hugs,
Glynda

[StarDeb55]

Cindy, my heart truly aches for you & the decision that you will have to make.

I will tell you what happened with me & Barkley. He had relapsed with his lymphoma, none of the rescue chemo was doing any good. He was rapidly loosing weight, even though he was still eating pretty well. He had some type of massive skin infection on his neck & upper chest where he had practically lost all of his hair. His derm vet could not find the cause of the infection, & warned me that this is usually one of the signs that B's life was drawing to a close. He was sleeping more & more, & I could tell he was struggling on a daily basis simply to be there for me. I had been petrified that I would hang on too long for me & not do the right thing for him. Even though I was desperate to keep him with me, I knew one afternoon when I got home from work that it was time. I watched B have a horrible struggle simply to get up from where he was sleeping to come greet me at the garage door. I broke down in tears, & told him that I would not let his struggle continue.

Please don't misunderstand, you know Penny best. I'm just worried that she is struggling to stay with you & your family, even though she may be fighting terrible pain & the other effects of the liver cancer.

God Bless,
Debbie

PS- I wanted to add that I agree with Glynda that what you are seeing as "dementia", could very well be the build up of toxins in Penny's system especially her brain due to liver failure. In people who have severe liver disease, including cancer, ammonia & other toxins builds up in the system, causing neurological issues, including confusion, & if severe enough, coma. If you want to make sure exactly what is going on, ask the vet if it's possible to check Penny's ammonia level. I know we run ammonias on people all the time, but I don't know if the test is available for canines.

[Altira]

Mira didn't do any pacing. She was pretty calm. Maybe because of the pred, I don't know. The pacing is worrisome for sure. Did you say gabapenton knocked her out? Made her sleep? I don't know. 8::::
((((hugs)))) We love you Penny.


Taken the day before we let her go. She was pretty swelled up in the middle.
http://www.k9cushings.com/forum/picture.php?albumid=264&pictureid=2087

[apollo6]

DeAr Cindy
You and Penny are in my prayers.
thinking of you.
hugs Sonja and Apollo

[Spiceysmum]

Cindy,

Thinking of you and Penny.

Linda

[addy]

Checking in with love and hugs for you and sweet girl Penny

[Squirt's Mom]

Arms reaching across the miles to wrap around you and our sweet Penny Poo.

Leslie and the gang

[frijole]

Sending love, Kim

[Altira]

I Swear To God... No matter where you are... the WHOLE LOT OF US are right there with you!

[SasAndYunah]

Here, with the rest of them....to hold and keep you throughout it all,

Sas and Mhina.

[Squirt's Mom]

Many, many hugs this morning. The cush Angels are surrounding you all.

[frijole]

Continued love being sent to you and dear Penny. Kim

[labblab]

Me too, Cindy. I am here, too, sending my love and prayers to you and our dear sweet Penny.

Marianne

[addy]

I am here too

[mypuppy]

:( :(

Jeanette & Princess

[jmac]

Cindy,
I am thinking of you and your sweet girl today and sending hugs and support your way...

Julie

[Altira]

http://www.k9cushings.com/forum/picture.php?albumid=479&pictureid=3861
Worried about you Cindy....

[Cyn719]

Sorry been tough to post.....really tough.....she is hanging in there...husband spoke to vet today and just cried....he's not ready....I think she is....we are talking it over tonight.... So difficult....he sees her eat alittle...she greets him...but thats it.....he said how do I let her go when she's still so alert...ugh so hard:(

Thank you for all the posts.....believe me it's keeping me going....I feel so drained.....plus I'm waiting for results from my oncologist.....running bloodwork for lymphoma.....scared to death!! Its been 23 yrs since i had hodgkins .... Will have results on wed. ..... To much to handle right now....

Hugs to all xoxo

[jmac]

Cindy,
I am so sorry for all you have been/are going through. It really is a tough decision, and really tough when you are not both in agreement. I hope tonight will bring you some clarity. You and Penny are always in my thoughts. I'm sending strength and prayers your way.

Julie & Hannah

[frijole]

Cindy, You take care of YOU. I am confident in any decisions you and your husband make - I just want to make sure that you are OK because you are dealing with so much. Meanwhile give Penny a big kiss and hug from me. xoxo Kim

[Bailey's Mom]

Hi Cindy-

I'm here too. Maybe show you husband that piece that Glynda hooked us up to?
I am so, so sorry.xxooxxoo Susan

[Rebelsmom]

Sending you both love and support Cindy.

[Altira]

Thank you for posting. All the angels have been fluttering around nervously.

Husbands I know. With our first dog I left Bud alone with him for an hour or so. He had to stay with him. It wasn't hard after that. It took hours to convince him with Mira. He went off to bed probably thinking she'd stop coughing. She didn't. He finally got up and said ok we can go, then he went back to bed. To that I said ... Well get up and get dressed! He did. Poor guy. He loved them all too.

You're going to be just fine Cindy. We know a dogs emotions can create havoc in their tests. You have been under increadable stress for months! You will walk out of this with your head held high, a stronger person because you will have survived it all. With all of us right behind you!

[BestBuddy]

Dear Cindy,

I haven't posted because I don't know what to say. I realised it was better for me to just say I am thinking of you and wish you strength for whatever decisions you make.

Take care.

Jenny

[k9diabetes]

Hi Cindy...

I am so sorry that you are going through this heart-wrenching process with Penny.

Having been in your spot a few years ago, I wanted to say that, within reason, it's probably important to give the humans a bit of time to be ready too. When our dog was terminally ill, I was "ready" - as if one can ever be ready... - before my husband was. He needed a little more time to get there, in part because I worked at home and spent all of my time with our dog so was a constant witness to what was happening to him and I had had the conversations with the vet directly. My husband hadn't had as much opportunity to prepare.

But the only thing I can think of that could have been worse than having to let our dog go would have been to have done it before my husband was prepared.

Our dog wasn't in significant pain, wasn't suffering. He was bleeding internally from cancer so was very weak and tired. Had he been in obvious pain, I know my husband would have gotten "there" right away when he witnessed that.

So if Penny doesn't seem to be suffering, then I think it's okay to take a little time to let your husband process this, if only to lessen his pain in the future to the degree possible.

Penny will be your guide. Her eyes will tell you if she's suffering...

Sending all of you a gentle hug,

Natalie

[addy]

Cindy, I wish I could find the words to say to you. How much you and Penny mean to all of us, how sad we all are that you are going through so much and it keeps getting heaped on you. I feel so powerless because I want to help and all I can do is come here and tell you I care about you and Penny and pray things resolve.

People say God does not give us more than we can handle but you have so much on your plate. Out of these dark days, surely hope will find a way through. It is so hard to lose our loved ones, be it fur babies or human.

Penny has had a constant loving family by her side all these years and she knows you will do the right thing whenever that time may be.

[Squirt's Mom]

Dearest Cindy,

No words just much love flying your way.

Hugs,
Leslie and the gang

[SasAndYunah]

Stille here with you...

Sas and Mhina.

[Squirt's Mom]

See You Soon
by Luka Bloom

I hope I love you enough to let you go
On the road only you can see
I hope I love you enough to let you go
And loosen the hold that you have on me

I want to bless you on your way
Say always to yourself be true
I hope you know there is no sweeter place in the world
Than the places I have been with you

See you soon, see you soon

The weakness in me fills my heart with fear
Telling me to control and try to keep you here
The spirit in me that's what is good and true
Telling me to be strong, and trust the letting go of you

See you soon, see you soon

The road waits patiently before you
Away you go now
Don't even look behind
Fill yourself with riches from the times we knew
I'll keep your goodness here
In my heart and in my mind

See you soon, see you soon

I hope I love you enough to let you go...

[Bailey's Mom]

I'm still here, albeit crying..with what Leslie sent.

More hugs.

Susan

[Harley PoMMom]

Sending my love and huge hugs to you and sweet Penny.

[Altira]

That first verse is a killer! The hold you have on me. That just about says it all. Cindy....!! 8::::

[Casey's Mom]

Cindy - what can I say except I am sending you as much strength and love and hugs that I have to give.

[SasAndYunah]

Just letting you know we're still here...with you,

Sas and Mhina.

[jmac]

Me too Cindy....still thinking of you.

Julie & Hannah

[Roxee's Dad]

Holding you all very close to my heart.

[Bailey's Mom]

Me too Cindy....still thinking of you.

Susan

[Altira]

Cindy, did your test results come back?

[addy]

we are all still here for you CIndy, take your time, whenever you are up to it.

[Squirt's Mom]

Candles are lit each morning in yours and Penny's name. My heart is with you all, tears struggle to the surface often, prayers rise and healing white light flows your way.

Hugs,
Leslie and the gang

[Altira]

I have not been given the ok to tell you this so I'm going out on a limb here. I got this information from Jeanette who I also hope will forgive me but I thought the Angels need to know.

Cindy is in the hospital from the fears she mentioned in her last post. She needs our prayers!

God PLEASE have mercy on our dear friend! We love you Cindy. Please get well.

[lulusmom]

Lighting a candle and saying prayers for my friend, Cindy, and her precious Penny. Thank you for letting us know, Janis.

[Altira]

Me too... Lit a candle for Cindy.

http://www.k9cushings.com/forum/picture.php?albumid=479&pictureid=3867

May the light of life from this candle find it's way to you and burn away this illness.

[frijole]

Sending love, strength and prayers to Cindy and the entire family. Angels no doubt will be out in full strength as they learn. Kim

[Squirt's Mom]

Oh me....thank you for letting us know, Janis. I can't imagine what she and her family are going through. If you get to talk with her please let her know we are all with them.

[addy]

We sit beside you, all of us, your family here on the forum, stroke your cheek and whisper we love you and know you will be better soon.

We sit beside you and read to you, perhaps your favorite book or poem.

We sit beside you, crowding the bed, as we try to get closer to make you smile and laugh at our silly jokes.

We sit beside you, all of us here, to give you strength and hope and our strong shoulders to lean on.

For we will always be beside you to help you, love you, encourage you.

We are strength and hope and love.

[labblab]

Oh Addy, thank you so much for putting into words what we are all feeling so deeply in our hearts. May Addy's beatiful words bring you healing comfort, Cindy. We are always with you, every moment of every hour of every day.

My thoughts and prayers and hopes and love are there with you now.

Huge, healing hugs flying your way ~
Marianne

[Squirt's Mom]

Amen to Addy's thoughts....

[jmac]

Janis, thanks for letting us know. Perfectly said, Addy.

Saying lots of prayers for Cindy and will keep her family in my thoughts.

Julie

[Harley PoMMom]

Beautifully said, Addy. Cindy and Penny, you both are in my thoughts and prayers, sending love and huge hugs....Lori

[Jenny & Judi in MN]

Cindy & Family & Penny are definitely in my thoughts. Judi

[Nika'sMom]

yes, beautifully said Addy, and thankyou Janis for letting us know..I was wondering why I hadn't heard from Cindy in a few days. I am sending love, hugs and prayers to you Cindy. Your Penny and family are deep in my thoughts as well..love Lynda

[SasAndYunah]

Okay everyone, scoot over, make room for one more person on that bed :)

Dear Cindy, I cannot say it more eloquently then Addy already has, but know her words are so true...we are all here for you to hold, carry, love and encourage you.

Big hugs,

Saskia and Mhina.

[Altira]

Me too. I wondered why I had heard nothing. Thank you so much Jeanette for finding her and telling me why. I'm so sad at where she has ended up. If you should get to talk to her again please be sure to tell her what Addy said and how we all stand so strongly behind those words. We miss you Cindy and desperately want you back! If love can make you better you certainly shall be. Don't give up hope Cindy.

[marie adams]

Ditto Ditto Ditto what everyone has said.

Cindy, you are in my prayers. So sorry for being MIA.

(((((HUGS)))))

[Bailey's Mom]

Hi Cindy-if warm wishes, positive thoughts and big, big hugs help heal, you will be back in the saddle again in no time. I am so sorry life has been so very hard for you. You are in my thoughts..........always. Take care and let those hospital people take care of YOU. We are here to hold you up if you need it. Know you are not alone.
-Susan

[Altira]

xxoo oooo
xxxoooooooo
xxxxooooooo
xxxxooooo
xxxxooo
xxxoo
xxo
xo


I know you like X's and O's. If I had an address I'd send you flowers....<sheepish smile> 8:::

[Sabre's Mum]

Cindy,

Positive thoughts and white healing light coming your way.

Angela and Flynn

[Bailey's Mom]

I'm here with you Cindy.....still thinking of you and Penny.

Susan

[apollo6]

We love you Cindy and Penny. We are engulfing you in our love, prayers and angels are watching over you.
Hugs Sonja and Apollo
We are praying for you both.

[Altira]

I'm in tears you guys! I just got this from Cindy:

"been home going for biopsy ---- waiting for appt ---they think it may be a lymphoma"

I hope she will come here and talk with all of us.

[jmac]

Thanks for letting us know, Janis. I have been really worrying about her and wondering how she is doing, and how Penny is doing. I, too, hope we will hear from her soon, but I would imagine she is really overwhelmed right now. I cannot believe how much she has been going through in such a short time.

Cindy, if you read this, please know that we are all thinking of you often and sending love, prayers, and positive thoughts, hoping for the best.

Julie & Hannah

[Jenny & Judi in MN]

Cyn: you've definitely been in my thoughts. hugs, Judi

[Squirt's Mom]

Dear Cindy,

You are being held so tightly in loving hands joined together from around the world. You are continually caressed by the power of our prayers, bathed in the light of our hope, faith and never-ending strength.

Many hugs,
Leslie and the gang

[mypuppy]

Dear family,

I just spoke with Cindy, and she is so thankful to every one of you who have taken the time to support her with so much love and concern for her and her precious Penny.

She asked me to let you know she is scheduled to meet with the surgeon on Thursday to discuss her biopsy which will be scheduled sometime next week? Very difficult to write this, but they will be checking for returned lymphoma or other form of cancer. My heart hurts to have learned this, but Cindy surely is a fighter, and with our continued prayers we have the deepest Faith in that she will beat this.

On a much brighter note, Penny has made a turnaround, eating great, walking, with a bit of trouble still but at least walking.

I promise to keep you all informed on Cindy's health as well as Penny's when I hear more.

Love to all in the meantime and tight hugs,

Jeanette and my sweet Princess

[Squirt's Mom]

Thank you so much, Jeanette!

[jmac]

Thanks for the update, Jeanette. I am glad to hear Penny has bounced back, and I will continue keeping Cindy in my thoughts and prayers. Please be sure to keep us updated on the results.

Julie & Hannah

[frijole]

Tell dear Cindy we are all not only fluttering but flapping our wings like maniacs in support of her and dear Penny. If there is anything whatsoever that we could do to help her through this, tell her to say the word. In the meantime, she's got prayers from us all. Kim

[Altira]

I'm so greatful that she is talking to you Jeanette. And thank you ever so much for keeping us up todate. Penny is walking! What a blessing that is. Thats got to make Cindy smile. Her mommy really needs her right now.

[Bo's Mom]

Cindy,
Sending healing thoughts and prayers for your baby.

[apollo6]

WE are hear for you.
Hugs Sonja and Apollo

[SasAndYunah]

Dear Cindy,

still here, carrying and holding you! Thinking of you and Penny lots...

Big, big hugs,

Sas and Mhina :)

[Nika'sMom]

Cindy..you and your Penny are constantly in my thoughts and prayers...love and hugs, Lynda

[Squirt's Mom]

Never out of my mind or heart.

Many hugs and much love,
Leslie and the gang

[jmac]

Cindy,
Still thinking of you and Penny here as well...hoping for the best for you.

Julie

[Altira]

Hi Cindy, I think many months back I mentioned that I felt my Kira would be following your Penny. Well I think I was partly right but it's my 95 year old dad. He's mostly unresponsive now. Do you know that we just let our humans starve to death? He actully left us long ago.

[apollo6]

Dear Cindy
You and Penny are in out thoughts and prayers.
HUgs SONJA and Apollo

[Altira]

I'm pretty certain Penny is still with us.

[mypuppy]

Hi All,

Cindy wanted me to let you all know she had her biopsy this morning. It went well, and she is now home trying to rest. She is hoping for results on Friday.

We will continue to hold sweet Cindy and Penny in our prayers as they are both so dear to our hearts.

Warmest regards and much love always.

Jeanette

[Squirt's Mom]

Thank you so much for passing this on, Jeanette! Hope the results are in soon and nothing to worry about.

[jmac]

Thanks for letting us know. I'm still thinking of them both every day!

Julie & Hannah

[SasAndYunah]

Cindy...

just letting you know that I'm still here, holding and carrying you and Penny in my heart,

Sas and Mhina :)

[Altira]

Gosh... Friday is so far away. I havent forgotten you. I'm loosing my dad Cindy. He's not going to wake up again.

[addy]

thinking of you and Penny and sending love

[jmac]

Cindy,

Thinking of you and Penny and praying for good news. Hope we'll hear something soon...

Julie & Hannah

[marie adams]

Sending many (((HUGS)))) to you and Penny!!!:)

[Squirt's Mom]

Don't want you to ever think you are forgotten. You and Penny remain in the forefront of my mind.

Many hugs,
Leslie and the gang

[frijole]

Mine too! Sending love, Kim

[addy]

Love from Addy, Zoe and Koko

[jmac]

I'm still here thinking of you every day too, Cindy. Hope you and Penny are okay. Hannah and Izzy send their love and kisses too!

Julie

[Nika'sMom]

Cindy...I keep retyping this post because I just don't know what to say that would actually make sense....and here I go again with a major mind block..you are constantly on my mind and my heart hurts so bad when I think of all that you are, and have been going through. I, like everyone here, are hoping and praying for the absolute best for you and your precious Penny..and if we could..we would be right there with you holding your hand, giving you hugs and telling you non stop just how much we really love you...(another mind block going on here) I hope that I made it clear just how much you are loved and missed....love and hugs Lynda and Nika

[apollo6]

Dear Cindy and Penny,
You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Hugs Sonja and Apollo

[Altira]

19 days and 74 posts later... Cindy?

[Squirt's Mom]

You and Penny are heavy on my mind this morning so I wanted to drop in and just let you know that you are both loved.

Hugs,
Leslie and the gang

[jmac]

Cindy,

Still thinking of you and Penny and sending prayers your way. I'm really wondering how you're both doing...

Julie & Hannah

[mypuppy]

Dear friends,

Cindy has asked me to update for her as she has been very busy undergoing various procedures since her biopsy resulted in squamous cells. They are still trying find the primary source.:(. Our poor Cindy is very tired.:( She briefly mentioned Penny is still eating very well but is panting excessively and her back is not great.:(

Please continue to keep Cindy and Penny in your daily prayers my dear friends.

I love you all.

Xo Jeanette

[Jenny & Judi in MN]

love and prayers for Cyn, Penny and her family. I'm so glad she is in touch with you. Judi

[SasAndYunah]

Thank you Jeanette for the update... Not a day goes by that I don't stop by to see if there's any news on Cindy and Penny. Keeping them both in my heart and thoughts,

Saskia and Mhina.

[Squirt's Mom]

Thank you, Jeanette. Please make sure Cindy knows we are all here pulling for her and for Penny.

[mypuppy]

Oh Leslie and dear family,

I sense Cindy is gathering strength from all of us here who have been on this journey with her and her girl. She feels our love for sure, no worries.

Tight hugs to all.

xo Jeanette

[jmac]

Thanks for the update, Jeanette. I think of Cindy and Penny every day. I am keeping them both in my prayers.

Julie & Hannah

[jmac]

Any more updates on Cindy and Penny???

Julie

[Altira]

Well damn it all! Cindy sweetie I'm sorry what for what you are going thru. Please get well soon. We miss you!

[addy]

Me too, what Janis said, me too

[Casey's Mom]

Me too, missing you .....

[Squirt's Mom]

Dear Cindy,

The love, hope, and concern that is flowing from your family here to you and Penny is immeasurable. When times are just too much, remember you are never alone, never. You both have a special place in the hearts of so many here that you are always, always surrounded. Not a day goes by that you aren't thought of, asked after, prayed for and dearly missed. I, and I am sure others, have added the both of you to prayer lists, asking for prayers, healing energy, and strength to attend you, Penny and your family. The k9c Angels are always by your side.

Many hugs and much love,
Leslie and the gang

[lvasilio]

I have been so busy at work I have just now caught up. My thoughts and prayers go out to the whole family. It is good new Penny seems to be rallying a little. Cindy, now's the time to focus on your health. Penny's still beside you. She's a fighter and you are too!
Love
Lesley and Jake

[SasAndYunah]

Dear Cindy,

just letting you know we're still thinking of you, Penny and your loved ones...

Saskia and Mhina.

[Altira]

Penny is gone...my beautiful girl is gone

( Just got this from Cindy)

We are all crying with you Cindy!

[jmac]

Oh, Cindy, I am so very sorry to hear that. Thank you, Janis, for passing it along. We are all here with you. I think of you and check the site so often for updates on you and Penny. I am so sorry your sweet girl is no longer with you, but she and we know how much you loved her and that you did all you could for her. I am sending lots of love, hugs, and strength your way. I hope your happy memories with Penny will eventually bring you peace. We are all here for you, whenever you want to talk to us...

Julie & Hannah

[lulusmom]

Janis, thank you for letting us know. I'm so sorry to hear that Penny has passed. Cindy, my heart goes out to you and my thoughts and prayers are still with you and your family.

Godspeed sweet Penny.

[Cyn719]

My beautiful penny left us tonight so fast. It wasn't expected. She just layed over on her side and got stiff..a stroke...her liver...thank God her two vets were there Dr sweet her wonderful orthopedic and her IMS Dr Lester. How great they happened to be there....she was in awful pain... Her tumor was the size of a baseball...it was probably starting to rupture.....they said we made a good quick decision. Penny was a great dog...I really won't find another one like her....my heart is broken into a billion pieces.....so is mikes and my husbands ..mike was my rock while my bro and Dave took her. They had to pick her up with a sheet...she snapped at Dave.... In 13 years she never snapped at anyone..she didn't know what she was doing or it was the pain. Tomorrow will be hard when mike gets up...each morning he gets up...finds her and the cuddle.....then he let's her out. It's gonna be hard. I wish she hung in a little longer while I'm going thru this. Squamous cell cancer with no primary spot found. Two lymph nodes in my groin were taken for the biopsy and I have two nodes in the iliac area. Chemo and radiation soon....I've been a mess...can't eat or drink....can't focus....just existing....now this.....exhausted....

But want to thank everyone for all the thoughts and prayers for me and penny.....

We love you penny .... You were the best dog ever....you were a God sent! Run free with all you Cush friends... Run as fast as you want with no pain! We love you my sweet Angel.....our tears are over flowing but we are happy you are not in any pain. Love you my baby girl .....mom..dad..mike... Buddy...uncle Lenny....nana....papa xoxoxoxo xoxoxoxo GodSpeed

[sunshinehoman]

I want to give my very sincere blubbering, sobbing apologies for your loss!! I am so, so, so sorry!

We are very new to this site and I am trying to read and get involved in other posts, to maybe give comfort or just be there if you need me.

I have recently finished Chemo and Radiation for Breast Cancer, so if you need an ear or anything please let me know

Again so sorry :(

Shannon & Sunshine

[Skye]

My dear sweet friend.........if you could see me standing beside you.....my lip quivering, my eyes see the weary and pain in yours.....you would see my arms reach out open wide......i would not wait for yours to open to join in an embrace.....i would wrap my arms around you.......knowing that no words could speak to ease pain, worry, when my eyes see you i see thousand of angels all around, they are there to give you strength, courage, and help you with each and every step. I will pray that God send you thousand more and more to gently cradle you as you heal.
stormee

[Sabre's Mum]

Cindy,

My heart and thoughts got out to.

Angela and Flynn

[Altira]

Cindy I'm crushed. You just have to get better. I hope you being able to post this painful news is a good sign. I'm sure it was hard in so many ways. Please stick with us and let us know how you are. It all sounds so terribly frightening. Maybe it will help knowing we are behind you. Maybe it will help knowing that others know what you are going through. I hope you can find at least a little comfort here. So many people here care about you! :o

Whenever you hear the wind whoshing by, it's your Penny running like the wind...

Bless you sweet Penny for capturing Cindy's heart so fully and bringing her so much happiness for as long as you could... run free and fast now....

[addy]

Dearest Cindy, so much to bear, my heart breaks for you but I know you have the strength to see it all through and we are here always with you, always beside you to lend an ear and give you our strength.

So much courage, brave Cindy, you always show so much courage. Penny showed your courage as well.

Run wild and free sweet pup, forever you will be with us all for we all have known you and we all have loved you and will continue to cherish you in our hearts.

[labblab]

Cindy, there are no words to tell you what is in my heart. Thank you so much for your strength and courage in coming back to share this with us. From across the miles, I am sending you my love and deepest sympathy. We will never forget sweet, dear Penny. And we will never leave your side, Cindy. Never, ever, ever.

Sending you healing hugs and prayers for comfort ~
Marianne

[Jenny & Judi in MN]

I'm so sorry you are missing your Penny so much. I'm really glad her vets were there. Will definitely keep thinking of you Cyn as you go through your treatments. Please keep us updated when you can.

hugs, Judi

[mypuppy]

My sweet, fragile Cindy,

Your strength and courage is an inspiration to all of us here, but yet we know how great your pain is right now. Our Penny girl is one very special and precious baby, and she will remain deep in our hearts for always.

From my family to yours, we continue to offer you our support, friendship, prayers, but mostly our love...now and beyond.

God Bless you Penny girl, Cindy, Mike, Dave and family, and take care of you my very special friend.

Tight hugs all around....

Xo Jeanette

[RockysDad]

Dear Cindy,

I am so sorry to have read about Penny.

My mother is going through chemo right now, for breast cancer. Its not easy, and my thoughts and prayers are with you.

RockysDad, Rohan

[Squirt's Mom]

Dearest Cindy,

Words absolutely fail me right now and I can barely see through the tears or breath for the sobs....my heart is bleeding for you and yours, my Soul screaming in pain.

You are still not alone, honey, never. My thoughts, prayers and a healing white light continuously rise for you.

Our deepest, sincerest sympathies,
Leslie, Squirt, Trinket, Brick, Tasha, and our Angel, Ruby and Crystal

[frijole]

Dear Cindy, You are an inspiration to us all. Your love for Penny is so obvious and you did a tremendous job caring for her. Now its time to focus on yourself. Know you have the prayers of us all as you continue your fight. Stay strong and feel the strength being sent from this wonderful group that loves you so much.

Penny, we will never forget you. Run wild and free of pain. Eat whatever you want, whenever you want and play like a newborn pup. RIP dear angel. Love, Kim

[Bo's Mom]

So sorry to hear about Penny. Your family's love and devotion are inspirational and she knows she was well loved and cared for. Penny, go free and be an Angel now. You will be missed here on Earth.

[Spiceysmum]

Dear Cindy,

I am so sorry to hear about Penny. I have been thinking of you often and will continue to pray for your recovery. God bless you and your family.

Linda x

[k9diabetes]

Godspeed to your sweet beloved Penny... I'm so sorry for your loss and for all that you are going through at the same time. I know how deeply Penny will be missed.

Natalie

[Tina]

Dear Cindy,

I am new to the forum, but am so sorry to read about your beloved Penny. My deepest sympathy.

Tina

[Roxee's Dad]

Dear Cindy,
I am so very sorry for your loss.
Rest in Peace sweet Penny, you will be our newest and brightest star in the sky.

[marie adams]

Dearest Cindy,

My heart is breaking to learn about Penny. You were always there for her and she knew this!!!

Please get better yourself even though this is such a rough time for you health wise and for the loss of Penny. We all know how the loss of our dear furbabies affects us.

I know Maddie was there to welcome Penny at the Rainbow Bridge along with everyone else's babies.

Sending my ((((HUGS))))

[BestBuddy]

Dear Cindy,

Thinking of you. Godspeed Penny.

Jenny

[Maya]

I'm so sorry to hear of your loss dear Cindy. May God bless and comfort you and your family during this difficult time.....

[molly muffin]

Cindy I'm so sorry for your sweet Penny's passing. I'm another newbie here, but I've read about you and Penny through these pages that it just has broken my heart to hear that she didn't make it.
Know that you are held close in the hearts of many.

Hugs,
Sharlene and Molly Muffin

[Rebelsmom]

Cindy words are failing me now as I can't stop the tears. I check in often just to see if there is news of you and Penny are doing. It broke my heart to read that but I know she is running free with no pain. Please take care of yourself and know we are all here praying for you. Stay in touch when you can.

[mytil]

Dearest Cindy,

I am so very sorry - I know your heart is breaking. My deepest condolences. Your Penny will always be remembered as well as your devotion to her.

My ((((((hugs)))))) to you and your family
Terry

[bgdavis]

Cindy,

I'm very sorry for your sudden loss of Penny. Remember the good times and that she is now free of pain and illness. She loved you right back.

Bonnie and Angel Criss

[Nika'sMom]

My Dear Cindy..I received the news this morning of your sweet Penny, and I feel my heart being shattered to pieces for you. You were so amazing to her Cindy, your love for her was so obvious to all who have had the pleasure of sharing your journey with your Penny. I am so very sorry for your loss and all that you are going through..I miss you Cindy and I wish there was something I could do to help you through this...sending love and hugs, Lynda

[Bailey's Mom]

Hi Cindy-
Thanks for letting us all hear from you. It is a blessing of sorts that you were able to be with Penny as she headed off for the Rainbow Bridge. I know that this is a huge loss for you and your family. 13 years is a very long time, yet never enough. Please take care of yourself and keep in touch. I am so very sorry for your loss.

Susan

[Altira]

8:::: I wish I could help!

[Squirt's Mom]

Dear Cindy,

You are stronger than you think. Please keep fighting. You are never alone honey; even when it feels like you are in a dark, empty tunnel, we are right by your side. You are dearly loved and missed, and remain in my thoughts and prayers daily as I know you do in others.

Hugs,
Leslie and the gang

[Casey's Mom]

Dear Cindy, I am so very sorry for your family's loss of Penny.My heart goes out to you - please stay with us and let us help you in your grief. This site was my salvation when Casey left me -I hope we can do the same for you. I also want you to know I am praying for you sweetie ...

Love and many hugs,

[Cyn719]

To my very special Cush Angel family

Thank you for all the beautiful words. Penny is missed so much by so many people. Me Michael and my husband are just sick over this. The entire neighborhood has called .... They miss seeing her watch over everyone each day......all our neighbors have been here just as long as we had her...almost 13yrs.....her IMS called today.....she said she couldn't stop thing about her and us.....how wonderful Penny was right till the end.....my girl as sick as she was never had an accident in the house....that was the last thing she did before she collapsed ....she went out to go to the bathroom...mike went out to help her in.....she got into the house and layed right down....then layed over on her side and was stiff....Dave tried to get her up..she snapped at him.....first time she ever snapped at anyone....my bro came and they carried her out on a sheet.....it was a miracle that night ...cause it was a Saturady night ....her IMS and orthopedic were both there at 800pm....IMS was leaving but when she heard penny was coming in she stayed......they said her legs just totally had it and her tumor was like a large baseball......she was a fighter for sure.....a part of me is gone......penny loved life for sure....she never wanted to disappoint us. She was always making us smile....my son wants to get another one soon....and I believe my husband does too. But I will be starting chemo soon so with mike going back to school and Dave's working a lot we will have to wait awhile.

I could never of gone thru all of Penny's issues without all of you.....you all were the wind beneath my wings for sure....

Love ang hugs to all of you

Cindy, David and Mike xoxoxo

Penny girl.....we miss you so so much.......hope you met a lot of new friends......love you my Angel girl. Xoxo

[Altira]

Cindy, how nice to hear from you. I'm so happily suprized. I cried myself to sleep last night thinking about you. Your post will make for a lot of happy fluttering around here. Well as happy as an angel can be under the circumstances. Maybe i should say attentive fluttering. But we really do miss you and feel so worried. You know 13 years isn't so bad for a big dog. Our first husky lived 13 years and two weeks. I sort of base those that follow on that number. How sweet of the neighbors to care. But I got to tell you the happiest thing I read in your post was about son and hubby wanting another dog and the fact that you didn't say no. Well no for now, that make since. But if I remember right you waited five years before getting Penny? I was so hoping that wouldn't happen again. You do Penny a great honor by wanting another. They are wonderful animals. And you need that to help you thru. You all need some happiness. Let's us know when you start the chemo ok? 8:::

You were the best dog ever... Penny!

[jrepac]

I hope things get better for you Cindy....Penny was a real fighter and surely will be missed. Even when they are gone, we never forget them.

Jeff & the Girls

[addy]

Dearest Cindy,

Baby steps, small steps at a time. We step with you, we are right by your side.

Penny was so truly blessed to have shared such an amazing life and love with you and your family and as you are all blessed to have shared her life.

Thank you for coming back to speak with us. We know it is so hard but we rejoice in your voice.

[John II]

Oh Cindy I am so sorry to hear about Penny.
But you all gave her the joyful life of a truly loved dog!

I'm also so sorry to hear about your own health problem.
I hope the treatments work well for you and you beat this illness soon!

Many (((HUGS)))

[Harley PoMMom]

Dear Cindy,

I am so sorry for the loss of dear Penny and my heart goes out to you and your family. Penny was such a special girl and was very blessed to have you as her mommy.

Sending huge and loving hugs,
Lori

[SasAndYunah]

Dear Cindy,

You have been such a brave and strong woman, caring for and loving Penny as you did. Penny could hang on this long because of you, because of your care, strenght, courage and love for her. You were the best mom to her that she could have wished for... I'll miss you, dear, sweet Penny.

And now you need to focus all that love, care, courage and strength on yourself...you can do it!

Big, big hugs,

Sas and Mhina.

[Altira]

Five days feels like forever. Hope you are ok.

[lvasilio]

Let me add my sincere condolences for the loss of your Penny. I know how much it hurts. Both my dogs are older and I think how hard it was to lose one of their brothers a couple of years ago, but you never forget them and you find you will laugh at some of the antics you remember she pulled through her life soon enough.
Now is the time to focus on your health and getting better and stronger. That presence you feel by your side during the low times is Penny standing beside you and helping you to cope.
And when you are ready you will be the savior to some well deserving young pup who may not have hoped for a chance at living a great life in a loving family.
God bless you and your family. Penny will forever watch over you
Lesley and Jake

[BreeandDaisy]

So sorry to read about the passing of Penny. My thoughts are with you at this difficult time. I hope your fond memories of her will help you through it all.

[Cyn719]

Thank you everyone for all the beautiful posts. I cherish each and everyone of them. This is a hard time right now. I miss my girl and I need her here with me while I go through this. But as LESLIE put it ...she is by my side. That was such a beautiful post Leslie......I do feel she is here....just wish I could hug her...it always made me feel good....damm it's hard! I can't get through a post without tears streaming down my face! Yes Leslie I will save another puppy when I'm through this...God willing......my poor son he loses his dog and finds out his mom has cancer again....he's so stressed.....I'm glad he's going back to school soon....he won't have to see me so sick...I will try to post when I'm in the hospital the 27th to the 31st....if not my husband will be in contact with Jeanette...Princesses mom...her and her family have been great support for me....and also thank you to Janis for all the pics and emails. Keep me in your prayers....love you all.....love and hugs to you and your precious furbabies. Xoxo

PS. My brother is getting married April 27th ..... Me Dave and mike are in the wedding.....extra prayers I am healthy by then......and have hair!!!! Lol lol :) need a little humor

[Bo's Mom]

Prayers for you Cindy. I just wanted to say you are an inspiration to us all. Keep up the fight and stay strong.

[frijole]

Cindy, Sending love and positive vibes your way. Keep up the fight and I have no doubts that Penny is by your side in spirit. We will be thinking of you and praying for a speedy recovery. Kim

[addy]

There is no doubt in my mind that you will have a glorious head of shiny hair for the wedding and will dance the night away:):):)

Get well soon, sweet Cindy; we are here by your side every step of the way and yes, Penny is at your side too, bringing you strength and courage just as you always brought her.

love and kisses and hugs

[labblab]

Cindy, thank you so much for writing to us. You know, your hospital room is gonna be really crowded next week with all of us trying to squeeze in alongside you!! We'll probably have to assign shifts ;). But no matter what, Spirit Penny will always get first pick as to where she wants to snuggle up. She'll be the leader of the pack.

Sending so many hugs and healing wishes your way. We'll be so anxious for those updates.

Love, Marianne

[Squirt's Mom]

Hi Cindy! :)

Gosh, it's good to hear from you! You inspire me so much, Cindy, you inspire us all to be stronger, better, more compassionate. I know your son looks at you with such pride in his heart - his amazing mama, the kung-fu fighter, gentle of spirit, kind in thought. As do I.

So, prepare the hospital for the tide of folks that will be with you as long as you are there. If that little nurse gets the creeps walking down the hall at night, tell her not to scream....I don't bite. :D Well, maybe just a nibble of that HOT orderly over there....

Hugs,
Leslie and the gang

[Cyn719]

Quick post...port is in....went good....slept a few hours after. Getting sore now..ice on ice off...have Vicodin if needed....my husband and mike are waiting on me...:)....just missing petting my girl....it was always soothing.......but I know she's here..I do...ok tears again so have to stop....thanks for the support....you all are the BEST!! Love and hugs...xoxoxo

Miss you Penny.....hope you met a lot of new friends I love you so much! Xoxoxo

[Casey's Mom]

Cindy when Casey passed I could feel her on the bed with me even though she hadn't been able to jump up on the bed in years. I could see her out of the corner of my eye lying on the bed with me. Penny is with you my dear just as we are all with you.

Love and many hugs,

[Altira]

"port is in....went good....slept a few hours after. Getting sore now..ice on ice off...have Vicodin if needed"

I wish I knew was this meant... did you start the radiation today? And it went good? Are you in the hospital now? You are doing so well. Of course Penny is with you, we are all with you, praying for you. Please don't let our Cindy hurt!

((((hugs))))

what? .... what do you want?
WHOOF! ..... WHOOF!
Oh okay, Neeka and Kira say hugs from them too...

[Cyn719]

Janis

Just had the port put in my chest to start the chemo next week....the procedure went well.....just very very sore . Xoxo

[Altira]

Good God Cindy! I guess I don't have a clue what they're going to do to you. WTH! You're in the hospital now?

[addy]

Holding your hand, we are all holding your hand. If you need vicoden for pain, dont be shy about it;):)

We love you

[Squirt's Mom]

Hi Cindy,

I read your post last nite and was soooo happy to hear from you! :) I am glad that part of the procedure is over and hope you are in a bit less pain this morning, or that it is at least manageable. My heart goes out to you, sweetie. You are so brave and I know that Penny is so very proud of her mom.

It is easy for me to see her sitting there, right by your bed, watching every move the doctors and nurses make with intense attention, making sure her mom is taken care of and treated like a Queen. When the pain is so bad and the tears can't be stopped, she is there on that bed beside you, laying her head on your chest, her soft brown eyes staring into yours, pouring her love into you like a river swollen with spring rains. Penny will never leave your side, honey, and neither will we.

Many hugs,
Leslie and the gang

[Cyn719]

Leslie

Such beautiful words....thank you......I will remember that when I am having awful days.....

The port is less painful as of righ now. Trying to sleep last night and today was painful. So tomorrow should be even better. Wil get all the details of the chemo at doctor visit tomorrow.

Love and hugs always. Xoxo


Love you Penny girl! Xo

[frijole]

Just letting you know I'm following the journey as well... hang in there and know we are here for you. Love, Kim

[Cyn719]

Thanks kim:) hugs xoxo

[Spiceysmum]

Cindy,

Thinking of you and sending best wishes for you during this treatment.

Linda x

[Altira]

Thank you so much for keeping us updated. Stay strong sweetie. Check your email when you can.

[labblab]

Cindy, I'm here, too, and so glad to hear from you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Marianne

[infoviewer]

Cindy, so sorry you are having to go through this, but just remember it is healing you and you will be better soon. Prayers and love, JoAnne

[Bailey's Mom]

Count me in.....I won't take up much space. Just know I am here ready to cheer you on!

Susan

[SasAndYunah]

Dear Cindy,

Me and Mhina are sending you all the love and hugs you can bare :D

Sas and Mhina :)